A part of me doesn't want 2003 to end... and yet the other side wants it to be over with already. I don't know. 2003 was ok. When I think about it, the 2 things that really stand out from 2003 are my grandmothers passing. And while there were many terrific things that happened (the discovery for FRIENDSTER that lead to finding a lot of old friends including my most favorite rockstar homegirl April, figuring out what I want to do with my life, Sonny moves from Canada, almost dying while conquering the Rapids but luckily being saved by hottie guide Zach, Vegas at the PARIS, Disneyland Disneyland Disneyland... amongst the *good times*) its those 2 passings that I feel have really defined the year for me. I guess its both sad and enlightening because while I lost 2 women whom I loved, it makes you think about what matters and how you want to live your life. I'm grateful for those lessons and I feel like I know myself and what I want a lot more than the same girl a year ago.

I decided to stay home tonight. (Sorry Jean!) I much rather start the new year with my family than... um.. not. :) I can party tomorrow night. But right now, I just want to be home. :)

Anyways, HAPPY NEW YEARS!! So put some coins in your pocket (for prosperity) and jump up and down at midnight (so you grow taller) and think happy thoughts (just because). I hope 2004 for you will be bright, healthy, and full of joy and happiness. And although I may sound like a greeting card, I really DO mean it. :)

I got an email earlier today from my cousin Kristine... (HI KRISTINE!!!)

"You mom left last night. And i suppose by the time you get this, she'd have arrived. I hep she doesn't get stopped at customs or anything. She's hand carrying a little brown man stuffed in her purse."

I thought she was kidding about the the little brown man. Seriously. I thought she was just joking that my mom had brought home a "boyfriend" or something like that. But when my mom arrived from the airport later and revealed this:



It all made sense. This wooden fellow isn't a "boyfriend" but is an Igorot head hunter. He is actually is holding a head, but his arm fell off while traveling. But with some good wood glue, he'll be complete. Hmmmm I wonder where we'll put him.

Along with him, was this:


This little lady is actually a nutcracker. Any guesses as to where she would crack the nuts? ;)

Anyways, we're all really happy that Mom is back home. The house has felt empty and our whole holiday just wasn't the same without her here. The moment she walked through the door, it was like Christmas. We heard stories about her trip, the funeral, and how the family was doing.... and we told her all about the party. :) She just unpacked her suitcases to give us the things she got us and we, in return, gave her the Christmas gifts we weren't able to give to her. HAHAHA my mom got a whole bunch of bootleg DVDs... so if anyone wants to watch RETURN OF THE KING, ELF, or THE LAST SAMURI, come on by. ;) So far the quality isn't too bad. Just fuzzy.

OH... also my mom got us a MAGIC MIC! For those who don't know what a MAGIC MIC is, its basically a karaoke microphone that has songs built into it. Oh my goodness... its MIDI KARAOKE HEAVEN. :) We've been singing all night long.


Carlene and Sonny singing "Always."
*gag*

OH... and did I mention that it SCORES!??! Booyah! (ew. did I just say "Booyah"?) So Carlene and I have been competing... It was tough... we were trying hard to make each other laugh and loose concentration. I had been getting 95 and 97's... and I thought I had it. But Carlene pulled a 99 out of her ass with an ABBA song. So I just thought "Forget it. Just sing FAME and have fun." I GOT 100. Oh my goodness. It WAS a moment. I almost cried.

Almost.

But I did gloat. ;) There was probably a glitch in the computer... but at least the glitch was in MY favor. I WIN I WIN!

I was totally surprised by getting an alumni newsletter from my ELEMENTARY school. Wow. I was really impressed that they had found me. I don't live in San Dimas anymore and have moved 3 times since then, and yet they found me. Lucy's apparently had "lost" me once during all the moving and I was listed as MIA in one alumni newsletter which prompted Tina, Keri, and other Lucy girls to call me and ask if I was still alive.

Although I was feeling incredibly OLD, I started to laugh as I read this newsletter because a million memories came back to me. One of which was the first sweet romantic thing ever done for me. It was in kindergarten when Joey R. walked me to my car and asked to carry my books for me. Unfortunately, I was much too embarrassed and shy at the time to appreciate it because my dad had been there. But when I think about it now, I go "how cute!"

Oh to be young and innocent again.... :)

"Screw guys... I just gotta dance!"

:) Good times last night... fat cat and car flirting! (or not.)

After visiting each other's houses and bedrooms, we finally drove out to Hollywood where Janelle's sister Janine got us into Highlands and hooked it up really really well. The entire time, April and I kept on saying "We're with her." Oh yes.. we were cool... mingling with the owner and chatting it up with the DJ. Uh huh... uh huh. The music was good and my feet were aching from dancing in heels... but it was worth it.

We'll definitely do it again... just not tonight. ;)

Oh my goodness... we had a party last night. :)

OH yeah... and we had Mark's band "Bronson" play...





All in all, it was a good party. No one got arrested, no cops, no complaints... and no one got their cars towed. :) I was a bit freaked while the band was playing... but it wasn't too loud. Afterwards, they just jammed and played covers.. so it sorta became a semi-singlong. :) April and Janelle are now best buddies and apparently are planning to get matching goodies at Hustler... No one really got belligerantly drunk and sick... Mark's friends "we're with the band!" were kick ass and started a new trendy game called "Speed-toe" (its so simple... and yet.. so much fun!)... Had the Joseph, Adrian, Mark, Myles, and Melissa over without having our parents as a reason to get together... the Xbox got more play in one night then it probably has had the entire year (Sorry Joseph)... the house isn't trashed at all and really just needs a good vacuming... Beth, Jean, Sakura, April, and Janelle pretty much spent the night so after the guys left, it was basically a slumber party downstairs... Rocked the gospel of Dane Cook... a lot of pizza and drinks and even more desserts (so if anyone is having major sweet-tooth cravins.. come on over!!) OH! And Joe made pie!

Speaking of Joe... I also found this little Christmas present from him on my computer when Iwoke up this morning...


Nice.

Now we just gotta cleanup HARDCORE before my mom gets back from the PI. :) Cleaning party anyone??

WHOOOO! I finally finished making my Christmas presents. Sure, I'm about 3 and a half hours late, but its better late than never right?

Christmas was pretty nice. I admit, it wasn't THE GREATEST, with Mom being in the Philippines and all... but it was quite nice. I'm sure she had a good time with the family over here also.

Christmas Eve, we went over to my Dad's. I finally got to meet my newest baby niece Myla and I couldn't help but sing songs with the phrase "My love" in it and changing it to hers. "Myla... there's only you in my life... the only thing thats right..." But since she's only 2 months, we weren't able to play with her. I had an itching to call her "Spud" cause all she did was lie there and have people carry her around... but I'm sure she'll grow out of it, just like her sister Alicia, who's 2 now. Let me tell you, that girl is one ball of "Concepcion" spunk. Its funny, the family says that she's "Concecpcion" just because shes loud and somewhat stubborn. I guess thats true... cept I don't agree with the stubborn part. I don't think I'm that at all. Loud. Maybe on occasion. Anyways, this little girl is the silliest girl because she has a house full of giant boxers who are twice the size as she is... but yet when she sees my little Penelope, she's screaming and running from the puppy. :) But I just love her! When she's climbing onto your lap, hugging you and not trying to choke you... it makes you excited and eager to start a family of your own. (Not anytime soon though... but it makes you wishful...)

Close to midnight, we exchanged gifts... :) I think everyone was happy. At least I hope so.... I'm not complaining over here. My family pretty much gave up giving actual presents to the "kids" many years back opting for the gift in the envelope sort. Before you never really think about it... but when you see the babies getting actual gifts and piles and piles of toys that they can actually unwrap you kind of miss ripping the wrapping paper and getting suprised with its contents. Still no complaints though... I must admit, I get really excited ever year just shopping for my nieces' Christmas gifts and signing them from "Auntie Nicole." Even more so than the idea of recievings gifts. :)

Christmas Day... we were supposed to clean. HA. Instead, I took many naps while Carlene and Sonny indulged themselves with a new $5 xbox game. Christmas lunch... leftovers from my Tita Lagring. :) Gifts that keep on giving.

That afternoon, we went over to Chelle's and spend the evening with her and her huge family. :) Her family played White Elephant and I seriously don't think I've heard the word "vibrator" used to much during one game. Come to think of it, I don't think I've ever heard it used in the game before period. Hmmm. Anyways, it was fun just sitting, chatting, and watching all the kids play.

The weather outside was frightful this holiday... the wind and rain was horrible! But at least it stopped... so YAY!

Well I hope everyone had a very nice Christmas and got what they wanted. If not, there's always next year... so make sure you're EXTRA good. ;)

Lucky me got to chat a bit with Santa before he left for work... check it out. :)

spaznik: HI SANTA!
SantaClaus: Ho! Ho! Ho! Tonight is the big night! Have you been naughty or nice?
spaznik: ive been very nice!
SantaClaus: Outstanding! I'm very happy to hear that! O:)
spaznik: how are your elves??
SantaClaus: Here's something you should know about elves; they call a couple of times a year and check in to see how you're doing.
spaznik: really?!
SantaClaus: Indeed

spaznik: how are you doing?
SantaClaus: I'm well, thank you :). How are you?
spaznik: I'm great!
SantaClaus: Well, that's good! I hope you are spreading the Christmas spirit with others in need.
spaznik: I sure am! I baked cookies today!
SantaClaus: Mm hm.
spaznik: whats your favorite cookie santa?
SantaClaus: Oh, I cannot pick a favorite. ;)

spaznik: how is Mrs. Claus doing?
SantaClaus: Wonderfull! That's very kind of you to ask.

spaznik: so what are you going to get me?
SantaClaus: Sorry, I can't tell you that -- we've been working all year to make it a surprise! ;)

SantaClaus:There's not much time left, so please give me one wish at a time. What would you like for Christmas?
spaznik: a man
SantaClaus: I suspect that's not all! ;) Is there anything else you would like?
spaznik: love
SantaClaus: While everything I bring is made with lots of love, I can't actually bring love itself. That's up to you to find.
spaznik: you're useless to me.
SantaClaus: Is there anything else you would like?
spaznik: I need money Santa
SantaClaus: Ho Ho! If you only new how many times I've heard that! :D
spaznik: are you calling me a ho?
SantaClaus: Maybe.

spaznik: goodnight santa!
SantaClaus: ...and to all a good night! ;)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

:)

Congratulations! You're Legolas!


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Keeping with the whole Lord of the Rings themed blog... my darling sister wrote this on her xanga and I thought it was hilarious. Enjoy!

*updated for Jean*
**disclaimer: don't read if you haven't seen the movies, or if you don't want to know what happens in the end.**
***sorry.***
****:P****

Man even though we all knew Frodo was going to get that damn ring destroyed I was still surprise to actually see it happen. I waited 3 frickin' years to see it happen and when it finally slowly melted into the pit O flames I nearly pee-ed in my pants. And HELLO the movie is totally about Sam... fuck Frodo... he had mostly all the speaking lines that had some monumental Biblical message hidden behind it. In the end Sam got off the Lava rock... got back to the Shire... and even got married and had some kids. Poor Frodo was left feeling even more lost than ever and had to go away to live with the elves and wizards. *nods head* And about that home wrecker chick in the second movie... she ended up being cool. She frickin' ROCKED whe she decapitated the dragon and then killed the evil black hooded thing. Before that I must admit I was about throw down for Liv Tyler if home wrecker got all up on the King.

So... yeah... good movie ... even though it was a bit too long. I can't wait for the extended DVD collection to see all the deleted scenes and behind the scenes action satisfaction.

btw... anyone know how to speak elfish?

Not I said the fly... but I'm sure there are some folks out there who can.

Oh.. by any chance, did anyone feel the quake down here? I woke up, saw the news, and was all "THERE WAS A 6.0 EARTHQUAKE!?!" Hmmm, how weird. At least it wasn't too bad. I'm sure everyone's grateful for that.

Damn... what a busy weekend. But I'm not complaining... :) Busy is good. Much better than a "bored on my ass/lonely types of weekend.

After 7 months, I finally saw Joe on Friday. Surprise he looks the same! :) He came over and taught me how to play TEXAS HOLD EM... I learned that I can't bluff to save my life. When I got good cards, I couldn't help but smile... when I got bad cards I couldn't help but smile also, but that's because we were playing with my Chippendale cards. Hey... everyone's a winner with those cards. ;)

Anyways, Joe finally got to meet Sonny and there was no brawl over the claim of the guestroom and montage space on the fridge. :) After dinner, making Christmas presents and watching A QUEER EYE CHRISTMAS, we headed out to West Covina for Mikie's surprise party. :) It was fun! When he first came in, they had us all huddled in the kitchen in the dark and when he finally looked into the kitchen, everyone was sort of "SURPRISE!?!" while semi-crouch jumping in their places. It was great though, I got to see some faces that I haven't seen in a while... like since Mike-Bob's birthday. AND I got to see Janelle and catch up a bit in a semi-drunken state. :) I think Mikie's an alcoholic because everyone was giving him drinks. :) Hmmm, they also showed some softporn thanks to Evan. That got everyone's attention.

Saturday morning/afternoon, I ran some errands with Carlene. Why is it that when you enter the Filipino store, you come out smelling like fried fish? Seriously, I was in there for less than 10 minutes, and my clothes and hair had that fishy scent. Ew.

That evening, we drove to Glendale for my Mom's Barkada Christmas party... minus my Mom. :( But it was still a lot of fun. We probably played the most vicious game of White Elephant I've ever experienced. I really wanted to bring a "cool" gift that everyone wanted so I was lucky when Jean found me this neato Atari Joy-stick that has all the old school games on it. There were a lot of cool stuff also like Cranium and boomboxes and uber rich neck supporting pillows that were fought over. Oh... and money. You can't reject money. :) Probably the worst gift was this garage sensor so that you can't park your car too close to the wall... and poor Benji got that. If only he had a car to use it on. Boo. But I think everyone was quite content with what they got... and if not, I'm sure they'll use it for next year as revenge.

Look Mom! We're not on the stairs!

Soon to be new friendster gang. :)


Joseph's desktop. Scary.
I used to think Erik extrude was HOT...
when I was 6.


Saturday night and into Sunday afternoon, I worked on finishing my Christmas gifts for my darling St. Lucy girls. :) Luckily I finished in time and was able to pick up Melissa and meet Tam and Lisa in Pasadena with them in tact. Oh how I LOVE my St. Lucy girls. :)

Mel: Look at that one dish... that looks good.
Tam: Look at the price though. $32? I can buy 8 hootchie tops with that!
Nicole: What kind of hootchie tops are you getting for $4?
Tam: Floss.

Dinner was fab, desserts were even more delicious and the company was awesome. We need to go to Vegas... get tattoos and dance in the doorways over there. ;)


*good times*

Hmmm... This Friday (26th) if anyone is free, Carlene, Sonny, and myself are going to have a Post-Christmas get together at the house. Potluck, bring drinks, and whatever rejected Christmas gifts you got but don't want cause we'll be playing "REJECTED GIFT WHITE ELEPHANT." One man's junk is another one's treasure... or just get a new piece of junk. :) Call, email or IM if you want more info. :)

Mom, if you're reading this, we will be extra careful and clean up afterwards. :) We're responsible girls. By the way... we miss you! LOVE YOU!

Dear Santa,

I've been a very very good girl this year. So if you don't mind, I'd greatly appreciate you rewarding me on my "goodness" with this camera. Here is a picture so that you pick it out easily for me.

*drool*

F*ck me... this is one sexy camera Santa. Its the Lecia DIGILUX 2. This camera is made with LOVE and that's why its so freaking expensive. Actually, a Lecia camera of any kind would be nice... but this one would be super duper nice.

Have you been working out Santa? You're looking pretty good in that suit. That Mrs. Clause sure is one lucky woman. ;)

Anyways, if not, thats ok. A new "working" car would be nice too. If not that, world peace and a stockingful of money will do.

Merry Christmas!
~Nicole

P.S. What kind of cookies do you want? Is Vanilla flavored soy milk ok? I'll just leave whatever I have down by the fireplace. (But feel free to roam about the kitchen and take whatever you want. There's some excellent cereal atop of the frige and a can of clam chowder in the pantry if you're really hungry. Just grab a bowl in the cupboard to the left of the stove and stick it in the microwave for 4 minutes. Be sure to put saran wrap on it because then it will pop around and it may wake us up... not to mention make a mess in the microwave so be careful.)

It was one of those kookie mornings... so I present to you...

GOOD MORNING PENELOPE!


Its a beautiful day and Carlene is excited for the new day.


Poor puppy... it must be too early for her.


No... no one is stepping on Penelope...


She's actually balancing on Carlene's feet.


Apparently Carlene's feet have many talents...


They can also pet the puppy...


Too bad puppy doesn't like it much.


Well, at least she's not Michel Jackson's puppy.


Nope... she's ours and shes the cutest thing ever.

The end. :)

I just spent a little more than 6 hours of my life today dedicated to LORD OF THE RINGS. :) Oh my goodness...

The first 3 hours were in the early afternoon while I watched "THE TWO TOWERS" on DVD with Carlene. Since, I haven't had watched it before, I figured that there was no time like that moment to sit down and enjoy the film. Well, actually Carlene just popped in the DVD while I was making my Christmas presents and told me to watch... I couldn't give all my attention to the movie seeing that I was being "crafty" but I got the gist of what the "happenings" were... and what I couldn't get, I got a mini-rundown from Carlene....

Which was good, or else I would have been a bit lost later on when I watched RETURN OF THE KING with Mondo later on that night. WOW! Serious eye candy all around, from the battle scenes, to the different location and building shots, to Orlando Bloom kicking ass and looking majorly hot with his bow and arrow. :) Actually, everyone was kicking ass and I have to say that I was on the edge of my seat throughout the entire movie (probably also because I didn't go to the restroom before I entered the theater... goodness, they sure do know how to prolong the end don't they!) I think I'd probably want to go see it again just so that I can understand it more.

*gasp*

Did I just admit that I want to see it more than once? Goodness, I think I just made some Lord of the Rings fans very proud.

I apologize for calling you nerds. :)

YAY! School is done! Time to play!

After my last final, I drove down to LA to meet Jean to watch RENT. SPONTANEOUS was the word of the day. Well sorta. The night before we were talking about musicals and I said that I hadn't seen the show yet. So the shocked Jean (who's seen the show 4 and 1/2 times now) looked on the internet and found that it was playing down at the Wilshire... and that 2 hours before the show, they put the front 2 rows on sale for only $20. That's right, I said $20. Actually $22 cause they added a $2 restoration fee. (Good deal, the arm rest between me and Jean kept on falling off. ) But still, $22 is a damn good price. So we figured we'd try to get them.

By the time I got to the theater, Jean was already in line and we were 2 VERY lucky girls. There were only 43 seats available for the rush and we were #41 and #42... not to mention we didn't have to wait as long the 40 people in front of us. The guy in the very front of the line got there at 1am while the second guy got there at 10am. Insane I tell you but well worth it. RENT was AWESOME!! Especially from the second row. ;) I totally loved it!! The actors were simply amazing. Their singing was TERRIFIC and the energy from the stage so infectious that you couldn't help but smile and clap along with the music. Plus the little community of folks that were in those front rows were pretty friendly and very eager to participate in the performance. :)

So I'd say it was a pretty good start for the winter break. :)

Still sick. Boo.

At least I don’t think it’s the flu seeing that I haven’t had a fever. Just really horrid chest congestions... Incredibly when I went to get some medicine last week, my local Rite-aid was pretty barren cold-drug wise. I was lucky to grab the last box of SEVERE COLD SUDAFED. Unfortunately, it wasn’t working. Good thing there doesn’t seem to be a cold-outbreak in Brea because I was able to get Theraflu at the Walmart there.. Tastes like holy hell... but its effective.

Last Friday night I was pretty pathetic. I was home alone since my Mom had gone to a Christmas party and Sonny and Carlene declared that night as a “date night”... so it was just me and the puppy. Even the puppy was sick because she just had some shots and was pretty groggy. Sad thing was that I couldn’t fully lay comfortably on the couch because Penelope was so sensitive and ill that even if I were to touch her, let alone move her, she’d yelp. So she took up half of the couch. She’s alright now. Hopefully I’ll be fully recovered by the weekend...

Since Mom is gone, I went to the grocery and bought things she wouldn't normally buy... like MILK. Not VANILLA FLAVORED SOY MILK. MILK. I didn't go buck wild with junk food, and maybe the "sweetest" splurge I got was a bottle of Quik so that I can turn normal MILK into Chocolate MILK. I also got ceral to go with the normal milk. There are somethings that vanilla flavored Soy milk can't replace.

I recieved an email from my cousin, Kristine, regarding my Mom in the Philippines... too funny.

Oh, your mom had an interesting evening yesterday. She was getting ready to go to bed and when she lay down on the cot (that Paul had set up) the bars of the cot gave way and she fell in ass first. Mamin was laughing too hard to help her out so I had to come down and help her out. I wish I took a picture. That could have been front page material on your blog.

NEXT TIME!

I can only imagine... :)

Last night was nice. Jill, Tracy, and Chelle came over and we all prayed together. Reminded me of high school. I was about to bust out with my Vision 2000 and start singing “Happiness.” It was a good feeling.

Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers for my Lola and family... It means a lot. :)

I love Joe. :)

AccordJMR: sorry about your grandma
spaznik: its ok now... shes in a better place...
AccordJMR: yeah true true
AccordJMR: i mean...she made your mom..and your mom made you... got to be a good thing with God huh.
AccordJMR: that's like brownie points for your grandma
AccordJMR: it's like straight on in...no waiting
AccordJMR: cuz theres along line

More than anything, I wish I could be on that plane with my Mom right now just so that I can be with her and support her. I wish I could be with my aunts and uncles and cousins. I wish I could say "goodbye" properly.

You'd think by now I'd know what to say when people say "I'm sorry" or "condolence". Thank you for being sorry? Or when friends and family say "if I need anything, say it"... I don't know. How will they react when I scream that I want everyone who has gone BACK. I want them to be alive, healthy, happy and BACK in my life. I want you to promise me that I'll never have to go through this again.

Losing Nanang was hard. Losing Lola isn't any easier.

I want to be selfish.

The thing is, theres no way to "make it better."

On the ride to the airport, I kept on thinking about that drive to go pick up my Lola and Lolo from there back in the second grade. I remember Carlene and I were trying to "outdo" each other by saying "When I see Lola and Lolo, I'm going give them a BIG hug!" or "When I see Lola and Lolo, I'm gonna run and give them a BIG hug and kiss!" But by the time we really did see them there for the first time, we were so shy that we hid behind my mom... who then teased us and said "I thought that you were going to run and hug them!"

If only we can go back and do things differently...

But she is in a better place and at peace. She and my Lolo and finally together and I'm sure they're happy. And thats the one thought aside from praying that keeps me sane. :)

:(

We learned this morning that my Lola passed away.

Mom is leaving for the PI tomorrow night. Carlene and I can't go because of school and mostly because of expenses.

I know shes in a better place, she's with my Lolo and that she's not suffering anymore... but its still unfair.

From the moment I learned how to pray, I prayed for all my grandparents... When I learned how to read and write, I wrote letters to my Lola and Lolo in the Philippines on pretty Hello Kitty stationary. I would tell them how I was doing, what tv shows I was watching and what were my favorite things. I remember when I was in second grade, telling my teacher about how excited I was that her and my Lolo were going to come and live with us.

It was a dream. Far from the Bradys, but as perfect as it could be. They were my heros. My Lola would baby me all the time. While my Nanang was "bad cop" when I was bad, Lola was always the good cop... giving me the benifit of a doubt and coming in to rescue me when I needed it. She always had an open ear whenever I needed it and even to this day I'll always remember holding her hand and feeling so incredibly loved. When they left, that was the first time I felt heartache because I knew they weren't going to be in my every day life. Even after they left whenever I saw her, she had this huge hug and smile for me.... and she'd would cry when I had to leave. She's say "Come back ok?" and i'd say that I try.

But the last time I went to the PI, it wasn't the same. A while ago, she had a stroke and really never recovered from it... It seems unfair for God not to entirely take her but he probably had his reasons. But what I will never forget is walking up to her bed and seeing her in that state... and looking into her eyes and seeing tears formed because my sister and I were there.

It sucks. It sucks SO BAD. I can't think of any other way to say it other than it sucks.

My throat is icky and I'm sneezing.

When I told my mom this, she replied "I hope it isn't the flu. One person died from it and you haven't had a vaccination."

Thank you very much for keeping optimistic Mom. :P

But really, I hope it isn't the flu.

Today was one of those days where I didn't want to go outside because it was just too gosh darn cold. Cold is good, but when you're barefooted, feeling ill, and really have no will to get out of the sweatshirt and pj bottoms, going out isn't appealing at all. But I did manage to amuse myself by watching some television with my sister (who bought me some pho for my throat), knitting, and washing my sheets.

While I napped, I woke up to find a little river of drool coming out of my mouth and onto my pillow. EWW. I'M A DROOLER!?! WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN!?! IS THERE A WAY I CAN STOP THIS!?! Maybe it's just a one time thing? I hope. I know I groan and sometimes talk in my sleep. Someone once told me that I snored, but I think they're a filthy liar.

I think every girl wants to be that dainty girl that sleeps all sweet and cute so that her lover can look over her and say "aww, I love this girl." Do you think Prince Charming would have kissed Snow White awake if she were a drooler, slept with her mouth open, and had fallen off of her bed? Then afterwards, he'd take his groggy princess with a severe case of bedhead back home and to live happily ever after? Its hard to believe that someone will look and thank their lucky stars for you if you're sleeping with your mouth open, snoring away, with your legs and arms thrown about wildly taking up the bedspace. But thats real life and I guess if they do, then it must be true love... or something.

Anyways, I best go drink some tea. :) The one good thing about being sick is having people fawn and take care of you. Even those little messages of health advice from friends are the sweetest things. I think this is probably one of those times where its perfectly acceptable to have someone speaking to you in "baby talk." :)

There was a time that when I listened to NSYNC's THE ONLY GIFT, I would smile and blush during Lance's solo. I'd imagine he was singing to me... that deep sexy voice was all for me.

What a nerd I was.

Men suck.

I'm not gonna start burning my bra over a scented candle anytime now though. The pads in my bra might just start an inferno.

Ok. I figured that I can't completely SHUT OUT guys from my life... nor can I stop foolish girly romantic notions from forming my head because 1) All those romance novels have messed up my mind. Really. I need to start reading about crime and mysteries... and murderers who kill asshole guys and daft girls who fall for them. 2) I'm in the business of weddings... so of course I'll think "awww... why can't that be me" being the pathetic sap that I am. 3) I've been boycrazy since the day I was born. If the doctor who had delivered me was male... I probably was checking him out and admiring how his hands firmly but tenderly slapped my bottom.

Not really. That's just sick.

I'm just gonna collect stranded puppies and become a doggie wedding planner for uber rich folks who have money to throw away on their pets. "The bride was wearing a rhinestone encrusted leash. Guests feasted on pedigree dog biscuits. The couple is registered at PETCO."

Or I'm gonna ask for an arranged marriage then I won't have to worry about finding that "someone". I'll be lazy and have someone take care of it for me. I have a dowry in the form of a case of good silverware. I good catch. I pour good tea.

Or... I can just roll my eyes and move on.

Thats do-able.

The puppy got to my knitting.

Day 4.

Argh!!

Its that time of the month...

My car is acting up. Again. Suprise suprise.

But on the bright side... One more week and I'll be free! Too bad I won't be able to go anywhere seeing that the car is f*cked and people aren't getting married so Nicole has to resort to making macaroni necklaces for her friends for Christmas (spray painted gold so they won't be entirely tacky of course). Wait a sec, I thought we were talking about the "bright" side... well at least I won't have to spend money I don't have on gas for a car that doesn't work! :) YAY!

The other night, I was watching some cheesy made for tv romance on the WE (WOMEN'S ENTERTAINMENT) channel... the story line was cheesy but yet at the same time some aspects seemed very familiar. It turned out that this "movie" was actually, "This Matter of Marriage" by Debbie Macomber, some paperback romance I have. The book was pretty good though and my copy is looking ratty because I had read it so many times. It's just a cute story. So as you can imagine, I was pretty excited to see these characters I've read so much about on the television. Unfortunantly, whoever wrote the screenplay took out some bits added some that they thought would be charming and COMPLETELY RUINED THE STORYLINE. Horrible. HORRIBLE. And I sat through it hoping that the it would somehow redeem itself in the end... but it didn't. I feel like I need to re-read it so that I can banish that horrible movie from my mind. Stories like that are probably better off on the pages rather than on the screen. My imagination is WAY better than whoever created that, but thats only my opinion.

I'm gonna see my darling Lucy girls soon. :) Oh excitment! I miss them so...

"I don't care."

April is a rockstar. She's my hero. I'd so TOTALLY do her... but I'd have to get in line.

THANK YOU ANGEL WEARING JEANS!

Disneyland... :)

Even if it started to rain while camping out for Fantasmic... it was still nice.

Probably the best part of the day was dinner over at California Disney. :) We ran into Scott (Scot Smythe!) and had an interesting "conversation" with Minnie Mouse

Mondo: You know that waitress over there (points to the waitress)
Minnie Mouse looks and then puts hands over her mouth in giggling motion
Mondo: Can you hook it up?
Minnie Mouse steps back and waves fingers in no motion
Mondo: (pointing at Carrie) She wants Mickey!! She thinks he's SEXY!
Minnie Mouse turns and glares at Carrie.
Mondo: SHe watches Fantasmic all the time and has posters of him all over her wall
Minnie Mouse stomps her feet and hits her chest in a motion that means "Bring it bitch"
Nicole: Take it outside girls.
Carrie: NO! He's the one who wants Mickey!
Minnie Mouse turns to Mondo with "What up with that HO!" motion
Mondo: NO NO NO! I like Donald!
Minnie Mouse looks shocked and slowly walks away.

If only I had a camera with me to capture that moment... :)

After reading the first few chapters about a month or so ago, I FINALLY finished The DaVinci Code early this morning. Argh. I did it again. I started reading on page 36 at 1am and I kept on saying "one more chapter" until I one more chaptered to the end of the book, page 452, several hours later with birds chirping outside my window. But WOW. There was NO WAY I was putting that book down... What a read! :)

Well worth the sleepless night.

Not really. That's just straight up NERDY.

But its still a really good book. :)

Anyways, since we finished throwing up Christmas in the house... we decided that today we'll take care of the outside. What first started as a simple strand of twinkle lights on the fence has blown up into this winterwonderland of crack. But its a nice winterwonderland of crack. :) Carlene and I remembered today that the neighborhood has a yearly Christmas Light Decorating contest... and we're determined to win. We even went so far to drive up and down the street to scope out the competition... HAHA. Actually, we're not THAT crazy and not mean-spirited at all. (But really, we drove up and down the street.)

It's gonna be hard this year, one of our neighbors across the street has a semi-huge inflatable snowman family (think MACY'S balloon) on their lawn AND twinkle lights on the second floor of their roof. DAMMIT! We don't have a ladder to compete with that! What we DO have is the green spiral modern interpretation of a tree, an itty bitty reindeer by it with flashing legs to make it look like its walking and our parol (see Filipino Christmas star). I really don't know what else we can do besides getting a lifesize manger scene and adding some Christmas lobsters and octopus.

Actually, we're having a terrific time working together decorating and getting those lights up... so even if we lose, its ok.

Wow. Talk about cheesy. :)

I got to work on some knitting today...

Yeah right. It looks more like this:


Day 2

I took me FOREVER just to get this far... mainly because I'm anal and I made myself start over about 6 times because the stitching was crooked or too loose or whatnot. I actually stopped by the bookstore today to look at some books to get more "insight" on knitting (meaning I was having a real hard time getting that damn stitch down. I blame the fact that I'm left handed... but actually I'm retarded and I can't understand the directions. Right needle? Loop? Where does the string go!? What do I do with the left needle!?) and I found KNITTING FOR KIDS. Talk about ANNOYING. They had pictures of kids and the scarves, hats, ponchos and sweaters they made. SWEATERS AND PONCHOS! I don't even have a coaster yet alone 10 rows of stitches and these kids had their own afghans made with their perfect stitches. What brats. I'll show them... I'll show them ALL!!

This is where I would cackle over my caldron. Muhaha.

Wrapping gifts with the family:

nicole: this is cute!! where did you get it?!
carlene: I'm not telling you where cause i got you one like it.
*slience*
sonny: WHY DID YOU TELL HER!?!

Wow. I think that if Sonny hadn't have said anything, I would have taken that as sisterly sarcasm. Too funny. :)

Speaking of Christmas shopping, I started! :) I feel like I'm behind though. But I've started making some gifts. :) No, I'm not making macaroni necklaces Jean...

Anyways, I'm teaching myself how to knit. This is what I have so far:

Day 1

It looks like it might take a while for a scarf or mitten to actually take shape... You don't know how long it took just to UNDERSTAND the directions to get that first stitch. Good gracious. At least I'm not making anything knit related as Christmas gifts...

Oh. Some new sexy pics of the puppy. :)


*You can't see it, but they've got me wearing a dog sweater.*


*Please help me.*


I've been procrastinating, can't you tell? :P

Today, my boss informed me that Valentine's Day weekend is going to be pretty busy... and well if you're a good little stalker, then you know that I have tickets to La Boheme on Saturday the 14th. My boss wasn't to happy about that, but I promised them my first born, as well as many nights and days slaving before Saturday morning, tear down Saturday night, AND setting up the 2 weddings the following Sunday and teardown as well. Its only December, but I can tell you already that this Valentines Day, I'm going to be more active than I have in the past... and its not even in that good *nudge nudge wink wink* way.

Good thing I'm single...

Ha. Ha. Ha?

You know, I never thought of myself as one of those crazy girls who would worry if he would or wouldn't call. Apparently I am. One night, I checked my phone several times to see if maybe he did and I just didn't catch it. Ew. Pathetic.

Sure, it was ok in high school... but you'd think the girl would grow out of it. I thought I did in my college years, but actually, I was secretly hoping that all my crush(es) would IM me. Ewww. Pathetic AND a nerd.

Anyways, I'm stopping. ROAR. I am woman. I rock like that. ;)

This is where I would snap my fingers.

I need to tell myself this over and over again just in case he or some other guy does call and I get all excited... and be retarded. :P Its such a lame cycle.

How exciting! Today I went to my very first Lakers game. It was awesome! Of course, the Lakers won. :) The score was 99-77 against the Indiana and seriously, the last 2 minutes of the game were actually pretty boring because while Kobe was napping on the floor courside, Fisher and Malone were on the side already dressed, and Shaq was sitting and drinking water... the ringers were playing and finishing up the game for them.

LAKERS BABY!!




My mom can't clap with the crowd. For some odd reason, she was always clapping off beat. :)

If only Mark Madsen were still there to dance for me. Boo.

Anyways, aside from the exorbitant food prices ($7.50 for McDonalds!?!), probably the best was hearing all the hecklers. You definitely don't hear THAT when you're watching a game on TV. Oh my goodness... HILARIOUS! When Miller totally missed a shot, our whole section started chating "AIRBALL" which turned into "REGGIE SUCKS." You have to wonder if the players actually hear it and get upset... like that Simpsons episode. Hmmm... anyways, it was GREAT. :) I want to go again... and again... and again.

One day after Thanksgiving, and we are OFFICALLY in Christmas mode. When I got home from work yesterday, I found the house had already turned into Santa's little sweatshop. Gifts, giftwrap and decorations all over the place. Apparently I'm the SLOW one in the house since I don't already have all my gifts bought and wrapped. :) Its ok... I'm in the process....

Anyways, when I got home from work today (more later on that), I found a Christmas tree in the living room! :) My mom popped in her "Neil Diamond Christmas" cd and that was the soundtrack to our cleaning this afternoon. Somehow Neil Diamond singing Christmas carols seems wrong. I kept on hearing his voice sing "We're coming to America... Today!" in my head and so I kept on singing "TODAY!!" and throwing my fist in the air when he sang "White Christmas." Well, as you can imagine, I couldn't take Neil singing "Little Drummer Boy" very long, and I couldn't seem to find my NSYNC Christmas cd anywhere... :( so I came up here and downloaded some Christmas classics to my hearts content. :)

After a mini vacation from work, it was back to the usual on Friday. I wish I had my camera today because we were out in Malibu and the ceremony was right next to the water. GORGEOUS! Well, except while I was decorating early this morning and this old asain man in a speedo proceeded to do YOGA about 10 feet away from me. Yes. Old man, in speedos, doing some eye raising stretches. Don't you wish I brought a camera?!

Since I rarely get to drive in the area, I rolled down the windows on my way home so that I can sink it all in. That drive along PCH was filled with so much eye candy that you're always on your toes because while you're staring at the ocean, you tend to forget about THE ROAD... or maybe THE STOP SIGN. :) But it was really nice. If I wasn't so tired, looking grubby, and just really eager to get home... I would have stopped and explored a bit. Next time then. :) DAY TRIP!

Nicole was:
a) bored
b) feeling creative
c) getting sick of the pink
d) all of the above.

Ahh... we're in the process of cooking thanksgiving dinner. The assignments are as follows:
Mom: The roast
Nicole: Stuffing and Cornbread (and opening the can of cranberry sauce)
Carlene: Potatoes
Sonny: Veggies
Sam's Club: Pumpkin Pie

We also have some Thanksgiving Okoy. Go ethnic!

Unfortunantly, we don't have milk. What we DO have is Vanilla flavored Soy Milk. YUM. So far my cornbread is slightly overcooked (see crunchy) but I'm not gonna blame the fact that I left it in the oven for too long... I'm gonna blame the soy milk.

What should be interesting is how Carlene's potatoes come out. The mix we got was in BULK (thanks to COSTCO) and there was some confusion as to how many packages she was supposed to add to the mixture of milk (soy subsitute)... so I'm predicting really really REALLY cheesy potatoes. Basically a solid block of cheese. But it'll be ok. Who doesn't like cheese?

Now we're having some downtime as we wait for our turn with the oven...

*tickling/fighting in bed with my sister (non-pornographic)*
carlene: Your boobs are big!! Are you thankful for your boobs! Its not fair!

spaznik: ew... you know what i'm hearing coming from my sisters room?
spaznik: "YOU SHOT A BOOGER IN MY EYE!"
WhoDaManny: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA
spaznik: and that was Sonny who was screaming it.

I love the holidays. :)

Bombie D: you're funny.. and delusional.. thats a cute characteristic.

Thanks Bombie! :) We'll be camping out on your front lawn. That's going to be the "cousins outing!"

Anyways...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

:) What are YOU thankful for?

I'm grateful for a million and one things. I'm grateful for wonderful friends, good health, beautiful days on earth, food, shelter... everything! But this Thanksgiving, I'm especially grateful for my family.

Without my Mom and Sister, I wouldn't have anything. They are my support and my true friends.

And Sonny is practically like a brother to me... so I'm very much grateful for him. :)

After losing Nanang this year, I believe I learned that "blood is thicker than water." The phrase itself sounds pretty cryptic and concocts visions of ganstas with tattoos in old english on their stomachs, but in my case its very true. Although I had many friends who supported me during that hard time (for which I will always be grateful), just sitting with them and being able to cry on each others shoulders helped filled the emptiness. I love my family. I'm blessed with loving parents and a terrific sister. All my aunts and uncles are simply amazing and I adore all my cousins. I need them in my life... If all my friendships were to crumble and I were alone, I know I'll always have my family.

~*~
My Lola in the Philippines has been sick for several years now from a stroke... but now she's in the hospital for pneumonia. So everytime theres a long distance call from there, my heart will stop. I'm scared that it might be THE call could really change things... I don't want to lose another grandmother and I especially don't want my mom to lose her mother. SO if you could, please keep her in your prayers I would be so very grateful.

So I was reading another romance yesterday... I think the most disturbing thing about reading some of these books is that after reading one especially "HOT" book... you turn to the last page and theres the author staring back at you. AND SHE'S AN OLD WOMAN. That sweet little old lady who could be anyone's grandmother had written "harder, deeper, faster" in a book for all the world to see. Granted, yes I'm sure in her day she was one fine foxy lady who had her share of goodness knows what... but it's still a bit weird. I guess it would be like talking to your parents about your love life... and giving details about everything. EVERYTHING.

Exactly. You don't to hear it nor do you want to share.

Anyways, on a somewhat related topic, that new Russell Crowe movie, MASTER AND COMMANDER, it sounds like some BDSM flick. Maybe it's just me.

Wow. And since we're already talking about it... Lucky Carlene went to a porn convention this past Sunday. Mom and I were sitting on the couch watching tv when she came home with her bag o' goodies. "I saw a man with a 13 inch penis!"

"Did you see it?" asked mom.

"No... but this is what he looks like." Carlene holds up an 8X10 pictures of the guy in clothes. "And this is his partner." She then flips the pictures around to a close up money shot of a woman's vagina.

"Greeeaat."

Christmas spirit... I'm in the Christmas Spirit! It all started when I went to watch LOVE ACTUALLY with April a few weeks ago...

"All I want for Christmas is you.... you.... you."

Late Saturday night (9pm), I was home at my computer, cold... so I decided to go down to Disneyland to watch the late showing FANTASMIC with Jean since she really really wanted to see it for her birthday. Although it was colder down in Anaheim and I was bundled up like an eskimo (sorta) but it was well worth it. :) Got some hot chocolate and rice krispies treats in the shape of a star, walked a bit afterwards, and went on the carousel (yay pretty pink horse!) and Peter Pan where I discovered that I went to high school with the girl who worked there, so that was a pleasant surprise. OH. I forgot... Rode the churro ride. It rocked. The attendant is VERY friendly. ;)

Sunday night I watched ELF with Jen and Angel and well that did it. Its not even Thanksgiving and I'm already dreaming of sugarplum fairies. :) It was such a cute movie! *Smilings my favorite!* Afterwards, I spent some quality time with my cousins talking and looking at some HORRIBLE pictures from when we were younger...

yeah right am I posting them here :P

You know what, I think that just being out, or staying at home, or just talking with people I love and care about is pretty much all I really need Christmas. Maybe that's why my "holiday spirit" so early... because I feel so blessed to have these people in my life. Does that sound as cheesy when you read it as it is in my head? Oh wells. :P

Anyways, as much as I hate school, you gotta love CSUF for their cumulative holiday break. Labor Day, Veterans Day, and Thanksgiving rolled into one week! Ahhh... I think I'm gonna watch some Christmas movies and cry for no apparent reason other than the fact that I'm happy.

The weekend so far...

Thursday night, I went down to Hollywood to watch Jean's play with Manny and Sakura. Actually getting there, I was nervous that my car was gonna break down, but I only had to pull over once after going over a bump. YAY! Anyways, I didn't get to meet up with Manny and Sakura for dinner because Manny said "Nevermind." Bastard. :P But at least we all met up at the play. Too bad it was the last performance because if you didn't get to go, then you really missed out. It was really funny! There was a lot of 80's jokes in it and although we didn't get to see Emmanuel Lewis, it was really good. :)

After the play, I went with Jean and Benji over to the cast/birthday party at this Karaoke/Thai/Japanese place. Oh my goodness, I don't know if it was the atmosphere, or just the fact that we were karaoking with a bunch of actors who really have no qualms about being up on stage and belting PRINCE'S PURPLE RAIN like no other... but I had soooo much fun! Everyone was so supportive... even the drunkards who weren't part of our party! At the end, I finally mustered up the courage to sing "STOP IN THE NAME OF LOVE" with Jean but almost lost it when one dude (who looked like Kid Rock but only with brown hair) came up right to the edge of the stage, lifted his shirt, and started groping himself (chest area). :) Talk about friendly! But that was how it was the whole night, everyone was really cool and rocking out.

Yesterday, I went to my very first HOCKEY game! GO DUCKS! :) Oh how exciting it was! Our seats were real nose bleeders (the second to the very last row) and my heart was beating really fast because I kept on imagining myself falling and just rolling down.... down... down... down... to the bottom. Anyways, as much as I think that ice skating is the most ridiculous thing, watching the game definitely had me on my edge of my seat. For a while the Ducks leading against the Nashville Predators, until in the 3rd quarter they were tied. SO they had to go into halftime but Nashville got the last point. So I was pretty sad that at my first game, my team had loss... but its ok. :) I guess it gives me more reason to go watch and support more... maybe? We'll see. I'll have to ask Tina to go with me since she's the pro and knows who the really cute players are. ;)

We finished the game around 10ish, got home, quickly got ready, and drove down to Manhattan Beach for Jean's birthday shindig thingie. :) I got down to the area around midnight and when I got there, I saw Manny and Jimmy on the corner of the street. They told me to go to the club because everyone was already in line... so I ran (sorta) to the club, but I guess they all got in already... so I waited... and waited.... and waited a bit more. Luckily I wasn't alone because I had Manny and Jimmy... so since it looked like we weren't going to get into the place, we went down to another bar instead that did some drinking there.

Around 1:45ish, we went outside because Jimmy thought there would be a brawl, but there wasn't... but at that time, everyone was getting out of the club! So since I couldn't drive home right then and there, we went over to the Kettle for some sobering food. What I learned last night: The Apple Chicken Sausage sandwich has way too much hot mustard in it, SEPTEMBER in the Chippendales calendar is a really good month, Sakura drinks a LOT of water, Manny really has no idea what he's talking about when it comes to turkeys, and Jean is a mean drunk. Just kidding Jean... put down the knife. ;P

That brings us to today. OK. Really quick. Went with my mom and Sonny to Moreno Valley for Benji's birthday, but when we got there, Benji and the other "kids" weren't there (they had gone to Best Buy) and the adults were praying some hardcore rosary in the living room. Anyways, so when we got there (late), we were pretty hungry, but at the same time we didn't want to just run into the room as they were praying just to get food. But if you know flilipino aunts, then you know that they're pretty insistent that you eat. So while my mom went straight into the living room and got her food, Sonny and I were having giggling fits over the entire thing right at the doorway because it just felt awkward... not to mention we were scared that while we were getting food, they'd stop and ask us to say something to meditated on, to which I would probably respond "I'm just really hungry" and run out of the room. But we put on our Van Damn faces and got food. Yay for us. Story over. :)

Oh yay! My phone is ringing! :)

"With a taste of your lips
I’m on a ride
You’re toxic
I’m slipping under
With a taste of poison paradise
I’m addicted to you
Don’t you know that you’re toxic
And I love what you do
Don’t you know that you’re toxic"
-Britney Spear's TOXIC

Probably the best track on the new Britney album in my opinion. It makes you wanna dance... in your room, in your car, at work, or in the dressing room of a store while trying on a top. It makes you feel like you're in a fashion show in that case. :P Big thank you to Luc for supplying me with the goods a week before it came out at your local Best Buy. :)

Look! Its midnight!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEAN!

Jean rocks so hard and I'm very grateful to have her as a friend. *muah*

Those who really know me or my sister or my mom know how we loathe cinnamon gum. Whenever its offered and I'm with Tina, she'll automatically say "Nicole won't take any. She thinks its sick." Its true. I really don't like chewing it... and I'm not really a fan of people chewing it around me. I don't think its "refreshing" at all. To me when people chew it, it smells like really old folks, dentures, and laway which in tagalog means "saliva." Eww. So you can imagine my "excitement" (oh yes.) when I saw a commerical for this...

Brush with this?! Back off cassanova! You ain't coming near me with a 60 ft pole.

Cinnamon when you're baking something... sure! Its fun! Smells like the holidays! We just bought some cinnamon scented pinecones and they make the house smell lovely. But in gum and toothpaste? Eww.. I like things minty. :)

If you know why I'm eating a lot of chocolate and sleeping in the fetal postion...

Feel my pain.

For some reason though, yesterday I was feeling REALLY crappy. I mean crappier than normal during this time. I think I made myself carsick... while driving my own car. I have headaches now. I've been really emotional. I cried while watching parts of MEET ME IN ST. LOUIS... and they weren't even the sad parts!

I think I'm going crazy. :P

Anyways, drugs should make everything all better. (By drugs I mean ADVIL. Gel-Caps. Hardcore.)

OH! By the way, my guest post is up at Pete's. Check it out! :)

I won!

... all my dreams...

Well not "ALL my dreams..." this comes in after marrying Conan O'Brien (dressed up as Indiana Jones), NSYNC reunion albums, becoming rich and famous, finding true love (see Conan O'Brien) and having a litter of gangsta babies, pretty unicorns, the newest Harry Potter books and movies, Chippendale dancers cleaning my house while grinding their hips, good health and happiness for my friends and family, and world peace. :)

Mark your calendars! Here are the days for the pizza parties!
December 28, 2004
December 25, 2012
December 22, 2020
December 26, 2028


Thanks so much for voting!

Aww... no FTC this weekend. First time in 5 years... golly, I'm old! (not really, but just go with me for dramatic purposes)

I tried to persuade Jean, Sakura, and Carrie to have an impromptu CAMPFIRE SKITS last night... but we just had the fire instead... not to mention a LOT of chocolate, chickflicks, and softporn. :) No complaints there. GOOD TIMES.

Today, I got my car fixed! YAY! Well, not completely fixed... that air compressor is still down. But at least the blinking temperature light on my dashboard will stop screaming at me. The blinking light scares me. One time I was driving to school when the check engine light started blinking... soon after the engine started smoking. Oh my gosh, I wish I had a civic! Dear Santa... I want a HONDA! Anyways, I brought it to my uncles house, where he discovered that my oil was insanely low... which is probably the cause of the blinking light. I hope thats what it is... I don't think I can handle another hidden *expensive* problem.

But while I was at my uncle's, I got to spend some quality time with my dear cousin Angel. :) I love her! I think we sat there for a good 4 hours just talking... she also gave fed me guava. Never had guava before. Its ok. Kinda.. um... sour? But ok. :)

I wouldn't have been able to have guava for the first time at FTC, nor would I have gotten the blinking light problem fixed or have a good time with Angel... so its good. :)

*gasp*

Last night... I was attacked.

Who knew a nail file could be used as a weapon!?!

OH! Much to our suprise... PENELOPED GRADUATED FROM PUPPY SCHOOL! Really... we were suprised. As much as she is the MOST ADORABLE PUPPY IN THE WORLD... I'm conviced that she has ADHD. So far the extent of her training I've seen is sit, lay down, and maybe if I'm really really persistent she can roll over. But asking her to "stay" and "wait" is completely out of the question. Oh wells, at least she graduated and will now conquer "advanced puppy school" where I hope they'll teach her how to not to bite, not to poop in the house so that Jean won't accidently step on it, and how to make a decent cup of coffee.

Currently, I'm in the running to have a "guest" post on Pete's website. Should I laugh? Should I cry? I don't know. I'm filled with so much emotion at the moment that I just don't know what to say. Well except...

Do it and I'll be your bestest friend in the whole wide world. If I win, (or loose depending on how you view this whole poll.) I promise you pizza parties on the 4th Tuesday of December every other leap year. What the hell... I'll throw in a personalized e-card if all 5 of you leave me your email too.

I know. You're excited. I'm excited. Its almost too much to handle!

And to my competitors... YOU'RE GOING DOWN!

:) I'm kidding of course. I love Jean and Carrie... they're 2 of my closest friends. Without them, I'd be at Disneyland telling folks in line I have a party of ONE. *ouch* Plus they have way too much dirt on me that I wouldn't want to mess with that. :P

So anyways, go and vote. It should be fun. :)

"Oh my god! Sonny got detained! We're stuck in Mexico!"

Those were the words that my dear sister cried into the phone this afternoon. Once I heard them, I went into panic mode... I knew right then how Mr. Walsh felt when Brenda went down to Mexico with Dylan without her drivers license/passport on BEVERLY HILLLS 90210.

"WHAT THE F*CK!?!" I screamed back. "OH MY GOODNESS!!" My heart was racing... she should have just married him so that he could stay in the country... forget the visa! Get a ring!

Luckily before I started making mental plans to call a lawyer, hitchhiking my way down to border, and somehow getting Sonny out of customs... I hear "Hi Nicole." It's Sonny. Whew! He got his Visa and he can work and stay in the country legally! YAAY! Thanks for scaring me and forcing me to think about illegal options on how to bust you out of the joint. Don't EVER do that to me again. ;P

It actually reminded me of how when we were younger and my parents would go out of town and call asking us how we were doing. We'd respond "Oh no mom... the house burned down!" I don't know why would she believe us when she's calling the house in the first place. Silly Mom. :)

~*~
Last night before going to bed, I picked up a book with the intentions of reading a couple of chapters. I was already somewhat sleepy but I like to read some cheesy romance before I actually hit the pillow so that I'll fall asleep with thoughts of millionaire cowboys and virgins being seduced by handsome sheiks.

Its a sad sad thing.

Anyways, so there I was reading about sexy cop, Joe, who was pretending to be the Gabrielle's boyfriend for an investigation at 1am. 2 hours later... after repeatedly telling myself "just one more chapter and then I'll go to sleep" I finished the book. It was a good read... except now, instead of being sleepy, I was energized. The happy ending made me want to read more. I was like a drug addict who needed another hit... or fix... or something. I don't know. I don't do drugs... but you know what I mean.

I grabbed another book (one that I had read before), and skimmed to the good parts (no... not the SEX scenes you perve... but the really sweet cute parts). Eventually, sleep came to me... but in the morning, I paid dearly for it.

Lesson of the night: Put the book down you crackwhore!

If I had a million dollars for every time my car has acted up in the 5 years I've had it... I'd be a bajillionaire.

I'm going to vent about my car. (cha-ching!)

But before I do, lets remind ourselves what the stupid thing is doing now: The air-conditioning is down and in order to fix it, I need to get some $1000 air compressor replaced. $1000 I don't have. So until then, I have no air.

Ok. So because of this bad air compressor, every time I go over a bump at a high speed, this thing will jolt in my engine and make this loud *OH GOD I'M DYING* car noise as well as make it a bit difficult to drive. Actually, this is what happens when I had my air-conditioning on... but luckily the guy at the shop (who had looked at me with pity as my eyes widened and became misty once he told me the estimate) told me that I could probably continue driving it just as long as I didn't turn on my air-conditioning. "Fine. No problem." I told him... the weather was still warm and I was used to driving with my windows down since this past summer my air-conditioning was sucky. (*note: you'd think that this was the same air-conditioning problem since I've had problems before... but noooo... its completely different and therefore not under the new air-conditioning warranty. BOO TO YOU VOLKSWAGON! BOO!)

Until now. Its cold. Its raining. And my windows are fogging up because apparently I breathe when I'm driving. So in order to defrost my window without turning on the AC... I open my window. IN THE RAIN. It works (sorta) and luckily I got home before it became completely frosted.

Oh... did I mention that the passenger side window button fell off? Because it would make sense that I open the passenger side window when I'm driving alone in the rain because then I won't get the wind and water blowing in my face... but I can't. The only window I am able to open while driving... is MY window.

Oh... and my right fog light is out.

...as the temperature warning light on my dashboard flashes and beeps at me. Something tells me I shouldn't be driving this.

This must be the bad karma everyone is talking about when they say "it'll come around." That’s it. I'm going to be an angel from now on. The epitome of sweetness and all things that are good.

I love you.

What? You hate me?

It’s all good baby... karma will get you.

Hmmm... I know something that will cheer me up!

*on the chippendales getting pranked on the OXYGEN's GIRLS BEHAVING BADLY*
TooMuchPete: That's hilarious!
spaznik: hahahaha isn't it!! the poor chippendales...
TooMuchPete: Yeah... I feel sooo bad for them.
spaznik: all shirtless and vulunerable...
spaznik: poor guys...
TooMuchPete: Oh yeah.
TooMuchPete: and all of those women chasing them? It must be horrible.
spaznik: how they all want THEIR BODIES... and not their minds....
spaznik: its quite tragic...
TooMuchPete: Quite.
TooMuchPete: I'm glad girls never want my body.
spaznik: whatever... I'm sure girls are using your mind as an excuse to get to your body.
spaznik: basically... you're a piece of meat.
spaznik: shake it meat!
TooMuchPete: You don't want to see that. ;-)
spaznik: yeah... i probably dont.

But can I say that watching that clip brought back happy memories of Vegas? :) Oh baby oh baby...

Why Joe is the GREATEST!
Joe: Go to McDonalds and get me Monopoly game pieces!
Nicole: So if you win, do I get 50% of the profits?
Joe: No... I'll get a house.
Nicole: Awww.. you'll buy me a house!?!
Joe: No... I'll buy myself a house. You can live there for free.

Rock on! :)

I feel like I should write, but I really don't know what exactly I could write about. Nothing of great importance or excitement has happened to me lately... other than the fact that I've ran off with Kris, a chippendale dancer, and I'm currently blogging live from his Las Vegas penthouse. He's the dreamiest. He's currently practicing his pelvic thrusts in the other room to Christina Aguliera's DIRRTY dressed up as a fireman. Sexy.

Hahaha I'm so funny...

Anyways, on a sad note, I learned today from Jean that the OG "Making of the Band" group, OTOWN, has offically broken up. I know what you're thinking... "Say it ain't so!" but I'm afraid its true. Dan, Erik, Jacob, and the 2 other guys whose names I can't remember are going forth and doing whatever they want to do.
I shall miss their catchy tunes and lyics such as this one:

"I wanna go all night aint no stoppin'
'Til the breaking of the dawn
I wanna go inside every corner girl
You really turn me on
I wanna go
Knock knock
Our bodies to the beat and when the morning comes
We're letting the sun shine
Stay in bed
Can't seperate us we fit together"
OTOWN
(2000-2003)

My only regret is that I never bought any of their albums.... I guess its too late. *sigh* GOOD LUCK BOYS ON WHATEVER YOU DO!

Aww... tonight is Masquerade Ball and I'm not going. I have to work tonight. So, rather than getting ready, I'm sitting here in my pjs, feeling somewhat like Cinderella... but with no fairy godmother in sight. :( Next weekend is FTC and its going to be my first time in 5 years that I won't be snuggling it up a top of a mountain playing ice breakers and hiding from SAAs. BOO! I gotta work.

These are the things I'm really missing from CKI. I really do miss seeing my friends and living out those hardcore CKI weekends where you work a project in the morning, go to a DCM in the afternoon, and hang out with everyone at someone's apartment or watching a movie and having dinner together. I miss not being able to go dress shopping or having fashion shows with the girls trying to figure out what we're gonna wear for Masquerade while saying to ourselves "yeah! we don't need dates!" but secretly wishing that the oh so dreamy Joe Bussiere would be there so you can watch him do something nice to "BABY GOT BACK" on the karaoke... I want to play Cranium. Who wants to play Cranium!?

I really do miss seeing everyone.

Oh baby oh baby... its Jason Mraz!

Can I say that I had the greatest time tonight at the Jason Mraz show. My goodness that BOY can SING! He has a voice! Hearing it live is competely different from on the radio... its amazing! He has this "mmmm" groan thats so sexy it made my toes curl and my jaw drop. :) Really. He has this ability to make you think like he's singing to you and you're the prettiest girl in the whole wide world. My heart just about stopped when he sang an acoustic verision "Rainbow Connection" (yes the Kermit song) and of course "You and I Both". He didn't sing "Sleep to Dream" which is another favorite song of mine... but oh wells. More reason to go see him again I guess. :)

Now I regret not seeing him with Jean all those times down in SD coffeeshops and whatnot for only $5. I've truly been missing out!

The Wiltern was pretty small and intimate, but it was standing room only. So, we opted to stand in the back where it was less crowded and we could still have a nice view of the stage. We were right behind the lighting and sound guys... so we were in awe of the lighting guys "button" magic and got to know what Jason was going to play before everyone did.

I felt so special. :)

Actually, really, I did. I got my ticket because another girl had backed out... so yay for me! :)

Plus I really had a grand ole time with Jean, Carrie, Beth, Ann... and the several hundred men, women, teenyboppers, gay couples who wanted to see MRAZ. Such a terriffic night. :)