Poor India Arie... 7 grammy nominations and she didn't win one! :( Yeah, its an honor to get nominated, and to have so many nominations is really terriffic, but it must be painful not to win one of those. The competition was really hard though... Alicia Keyes totally rocked and at least Nelly Furtado did win one. :) OH sadness... I totally missed NSYNC perform. *go ahead.. roll your eyes.. you know you want to* I was switching from the Grammys to TLC's Junkyard Warriors... I had the VCR and remote all ready and I completely missed Lance! Mike called and we were talking... and then he was telling me about how NSYNC performed and I was completely crushed... even started moaning loudly into the phone. I felt like a bad fan... so now I'm just waiting like a dork for someone to put it on Kazaa and then I can download it.

My sister is upset at me...
carlene is nice: youre worth more than me!!!
carlene is nice: i hate you!
spaznik: how much are you worth?
carlene is nice: $1,657,838.00.
carlene is nice: sorry im not a nun like you.
carlene is nice: =P
carlene is nice: and your page is annoying
carlene is nice: i hate that clock!
carlene is nice: your worth should depreciate!
*Hey...$1,657,838.00 is still a lot and hello.. its a silly website thingie... not like any of it is true. No one can really measure how much you are worth. As for the clock... I'm still debating if I'm going to keep it in or not... Kathy says she likes it... Jean is scared of it... as for me... it can get on my nerves, but its pretty when it chases the cursor around. Its like fairy dust. :) If it was made out of glitter and was a SHINY, MOVING object... oh my gosh, I would never leave my computer.

I was studying today at Borders... but then I got distracted by The Girl with the Pearl Earring and found myself crying in the bookstore. It was such a good read... :) I don't know if I wanna live in the Netherlands in the 17th century... but it would be nice to visit, fall in love, kidnap my love, put him in the time machine, and bring him back home with me. :) Yup... I was thinking that while watching KATE AND LEOPOLD a while back... yeah you're altering time, but really would you want to go back to 1876? People didn't bath frequently and all those crazy diseases... not to mention if you wanna go somewhere, there's no car and you'd have to travel via horse or carriage for SEVERAL hours. But then the guys had that chivalry thing going for them, the dresses were sooo pretty (but I imagine that they weighed a ton and you'd have to wear corsets *ouch*) and people actually interacted with each other cause they lacked AIM and moblie to moblie. Yeah.... I'd kidnap a love... OR if I had a boyfriend/fiancee/husband/cute prospective guyfriend by the time I actually get this "time machine," I'd strap them in and have them take notes. Yep.. thats an option.

So I've become addicted to this REAL WORLD/ROAD RULES ULTIMATE CHALLENGE thingie on MTV.... its AWESOME! Anyhoo, I missed an episode and as I was reading episode summaries online, I completely fell in love with whoever was writing it....

-Talking about the psycho married couple Holly (Road Rules Maximum Velocity) and Chadwick (Road Rules Austrailia) after Chadwick's team gets booted off...
Hollywick draws the blinds in her bedroom. She intensely tells Chadwick that no one has any integrity except for the Wicks. She bitches that the other members of the RR Inner Circle had the chance to make it fair, and they chose to make it personal. So she and Chadwick had integrity when they made it unfair, but now no one else does when they are trying to exact some form of justice? Interesting. In an interview, Hollywick says that she and Chadwick are really close, and now he's being torn away from her. She can't survive, like, two weeks without him? In the immortal words of Nell Carter, gimme a break. Hollywick says that the stakes just shot through the roof, and that she's the only one left fighting for them. Chadwick says that he's fighting for her. Hollywick points out that God is still on their side. Actually, I had a talk with Him last night, and he kind of hates the Wicks. I don't know how to break the news to her. Also, He asked me to tell them that he's kind of fucking busy right now with the starvation and the disease and the war, so He doesn't really have time to worry about the fucking Challenge. Also? He said to tell Hollywick to shut up. The Wicks start making out, and we get a lovely shot of Chadwicks's bacne. Hollywick starts sobbing as Macy Gray plays in the background.
*Can we say soulmate!?!?

:) After 3 hours in the lab... here are the LSSP pictures. Well the black and white ones... the colored ones will be up as soon as I get a chance to go to COSCO. ;) Oh goodness, I thought I was never going to get those finished cause everything WRONG that could happen in the lab happened. OH well, they came out pretty good... Enjoy! :)

Who Da Manny: nice icon
Who Da Manny: wanna fuck?

*swoon, drool, and all that cheesy madness*

Talk about the ladies man... ;) See Manny, something other than "bite me" will win over the girlies...

Yesterday was the Large Scale Service Project... that was SOOO awesome! We painted murals over grafitti and old CKI murals in Los Angeles... it was so much fun especially since so many clubs came to the event and we all got to socialize, paint, and count passing train cars together. :) Yeah, it was hot and I could feel my skin get darker and redder by the minute, but it was so worth it. :D

So after painting, eating delicious hot dogs at PINKS and a group sing-a-longs of SAY A LITTLE PRAYER and BUILD ME UP BUTTERCUP... my original plan was to go home, shower and get ready for Tita Lagring's birthday dinner... but it was already 6:30, dinner was at 7, and there was no way it could all work out magically. So I just drove straight to the house and unfortunantly for me... it wasn't a dinner. It was a full blown party!! :P

Anyways, the moment I walk in, Tito Nanding is grabbing my arms and asking about my "battlewounds" while I'm trying to figures out why there is an semi-old white man with a mullet, guitar, microphone, and amp in the middle of the kitchen. Ahhhhh... another one of dad's GENIUS ideas. :) Actually, it was pretty nice having the live music. Apparently this guy sings at Nanang's convalesent home so I guess dad thought it would be fun to have him sing some oldies at the party. It was kinda like open mic night at coffee bazaar or something... but its just weird to see it in your own kitchen... or even weirder... at your typical filipino family party.

*Bombie and I had a field day of sarcastic, smartass, and comedic remarks on this*

Later on, Carlene came (with clothes for me.. yay!) accidentally walked through the singing man's song... and was wisked away by dad for a dance next to the dessert table.

Basically spent the rest of the night serving cake and coffee to the Titas and Titos in the garage playing mahjong, playing with baby Alicia, and talking with Bombie and Michelle about your crazy overbearing parents. OH the insane and horrible revelation that one day, we WILL become them. But it was a really REALLY good talk abd I was really comforted by the fact that they know and completely understand where I was coming from. Plus we haven't talked like that in a while... so it was just great. :)

Let's do some reminincing ok?

My first CKI service project was 4 years ago decorating the ARK haunted house. Tina (little) and I were driving over there when we realized that the directions that they gave us weren't clear. So I had to pull over and call the CSUF president, Denise and ask her where the freak I was going... but instead, I got Andy Shih, who at the time was the LTG and a complete stranger to me... and here I was, frantic because it was nighttime, I was in some strange city, LOST, and as usual driving rather erratically. Unfortunantly, Andy wasn't helpful and proceeded to ask me what my name was and told me that I had a cute voice... even if I WAS freaking out.

Yep, there are a lot of weirdos in CKI. ;)

I'm having a block and can't think of anything interesting to write about....

Euterpe16: what's up?
spaznik: just trying to figure out what to blog about... if i even feel like it... and i do.. just dont know about what.
Euterpe16: about _______.
Euterpe16: and your undying love for him

*Nah. Been there... done that... sorta. Well without mentioning his name... and its not UNDYING love... its more like a *gee I think he's cute* kind of thing. Plus also... I don't think you guys wanna read about THAT... pshaw. Thats boring!!

spaznik: hmmmm.. what can i blog about?
jeanyah: about me
jeanyah: and how wonderful I am
jeanyah: or how about booty music
jeanyah: JUST SHAKE THAT ASS BITCH AND LET ME SEE WHAT YOU GOT!

* Jean likes booty music... EYE OF THE TIGER baby!! :)

Hmmmm... how bout this? Let's be entirely cocky and list:
REASONS WHY YOU SHOULD LOVE ME TODAY:
-My hair is so soft and shiny today -- any fingers that are not running through it are missing out
-I am cool?

And the phone calls come rolling in. :)

Well apparently, according to my sources, there is some person out there looking on Google for some action using the key words "dads and there sons having sex hmmm good sex." I am not kidding... this site showed up. See for yourself.... the 5th entry is coley1716.blogspot.com. EEEEKK!!! Well, to that person out there... I'm sorry to dissapoint you with my boy woes. Can you imagine?? Someone came here expecting to see some hard core triple X action... and got this instead. THATS WHAT YOU GET YOU PERVE! Hope the PINK blinds you!! Oh... and its "dads and THEIR sons having sex." Get it stright. :p

You know what? I have a complex. I'm retarded. Thats it. I think I look to much into something... probably most likely... theres nothing there really to begin with.

Boy: "Hi" (thinks... "hi")
Me: "Hi" (thinks... "oh my gosh... he LOVES me!")

Boy: "Do you have the time? (thinks... "gee I wonder what time it is.")
Me: "Sure, its 1 o'clock." (thinks... "I'll tell our grandchildren how we met and fell in love at 1 o'clock.")

Boy: "I just killed a man, can I hide out in your house? (thinks... "Oh crap... the cops are after me!")
Me: Um... I dunno. (thinks... "I'm not sure. Yeah, he's cute and HONEST and God knows how hard it is to find a nice HONEST guy these days... and hey, he's coming to ME for help. He could have gone to anyone, but he came to ME!! But what will my family think if I got with a criminal... would I have to go visit him in jail? EWwwwww! I dunno if I could do that...")

OK... well maybe not exactly like THAT... but I sometimes find myself going slighty batty with my crushes. Did he say "hi" with that certain voice... wow, we hugged a bit longer than usual... I think he's looking at me... oh wait, he's staring at the bra strap thats chillin outside my sleeve... Oh my gosh, he laughed at my joke... oooo we had a moment were our eyes met... WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAN? Its just hard with a crush cause they can't do wrong and you want every little thing to mean something. And until you say "HEY, I THINK I LIKE YOU"... you'll be driving youself insane.

Life would be so much easier if I were a nun. But then I'd probably be a "problem nun" like Maria in the "SOUND OF MUSIC" and just run off with the Captain anyways. Plus, I could NEVER pull off that pixie haircut.

Ahhh... I love days off. :) Sleep in till whenever, veg in your jammies all day, watch some good FULL HOUSE reruns, play with the Karaoke... :) Don't fret, I wasn't entirely lazy today... did some reading, finished my laundry and vacumned the whole house. WHOOO!

Look.. a very thought provoking conversation with Kenny. :D

Ken UCR: so tell me
Ken UCR: if something earth shattering happens
Ken UCR: do u think u can handle it?
spaznik: what are you talking about???
Ken UCR: if something get revealed that is totally mind boggling..........
Ken UCR: would it freak u out?
spaznik: hahaha... um... probably not.. i've found out some really interesting things in the past and I'm still seeing and hearing clearly.
Ken UCR: i mean somethign really really out there........
Ken UCR: like if GOD came down
Ken UCR: that kind of thing
spaznik: it would freak me out... who wouldnt...
Ken UCR: what if........
Ken UCR: Aliens came down
spaznik: then i'd freak out and hide out in my room.
spaznik: well thats if they are MEAN UGLY aliens..
Ken UCR: what if.......
spaznik: if they're cute and nice like ET... then id go hang out with them at the zoo..
Ken UCR: people u know where say "not human"
spaznik: kenny.. are you telling me that you are an alien??
Ken UCR: no
Ken UCR: hahahhahaha
Ken UCR: just wondering how people would handle "differences"
spaznik: ahhh...
spaznik: it just would depend on what it is...
Ken UCR: ok
Ken UCR: we'll find out soon enough
Ken UCR: hahahah
Ken UCR: so don't go crazy on me if when i start changing
Ken UCR: :-P
Ken UCR: hhahahah

*yep... I KNEW IT!! Kenny is an Alien. For a while I was scared that he might go and confess his undying love for me and I would have to be this horrible bitch and say that it just wasn't meant to be... but nah. He's an alien. Go figure.

OH... btw. Found this really interesting link. George W is totally adorable and I just wanna give him a big teddy bear hug. Like I told Manny... its like a car crash that you can't help but watch. :)

I dont get it...but thought it was a cute graphic. :)...

You are like a rockstar...only in Dutch.

Find out what YOUR inner non-sequitur is!

quiz by A.V. Phibes

What is YOUR Highschool label?

Yep... more quizzes. Its very addicting... and it makes you feel good. Sure all the answers are sugar coated and are extremely positive... but really, why would you want to take a quiz to find out if you are an evil person that nobody likes? Yeah yeah, I know that people are looking at these results and saying.. "um yeah.. uh huh whore... you WISH that were true." and yeah I do wish that it were true... but at least its like a hint of what my potential could be? Something to strive for? Yep. I think so too.

Melissa and I were talking today about how we missed the old Canyon Theater... well before it got all getto.

For those who don't know what I'm talking about... the Canyon Theater would be in that bare complex that next to Beth, Mike, and Lorraine's apartment.

And for those who STILL don't know what I'm talking about... its was old school movie theater in San Dimas that went out of business soon after the opened a big bad EDWARDS 12 down the street.

Thing about the Canyon Theater was that it was one theater... and they usually had double features. So after you watched QUIGLEY DOWN UNDER... you can stick around and watch THE MIGHTY DUCKS right after... and then even watch the first movie over again.

In the Philippines, they don't have movie times... they just show the movie over and over again... and so if you enter the theater and are late.. you can stay in and wait till they show it again and catch up on what you missed. So growing up, thats how my mom had us watch our movies... going inside late.. and spending the entire day in that red theater just vegging in front of the movie screen.

It used to be a really nice place.. and not all barren and dumpy as it is now. I remember when they showed BATMAN, it was PACKED and the parking lot would be full.

On wednesdays at noon.. it would be the Senior flick... so my Nanang would take myself, Carlene, Jr, Jen and Angel and we would just chill there with all the senior citizens watching old movies and listening to the same "Laurence of Arabia" soundtrack over and over again.

But then they opened the Edwards and then it got sad. They started printing 99 cent coupons in the church bulletin... and then it became "buy one get one free"... and then it just went broke cause no one was going anymore. Compared to the new theater with 12 screens and the high tech sound equipment.. it just wasn't enough to compete.

When Melissa and I were taking summerschool over at San Dimas high... we had this rhyming math teather who actually took up the 99 cent buy one get one free deal and took his kids to watch the POWER RANGER movie over there. *I'll talk more about the summer school experience later... *

I don't know where I'm going with this... we had this total flashback today as we passed it. But thinking about it brought out the warm fuzzies...

What Pattern Are You?


oh my gosh... I have NO idea what they are talking about. *winky winky*

:) Yay.... good day... long, tiring, and somewhat interesting day, but over all good.

So since my dad stood me and my sister up yesterday... we had a day 'o fun today... well yesterday... you know what I mean.

My dad is pretty hilarious... he really computer illiterate... so a majority of the day was spent in Carlene's room, on her computer, trying to type out his resume and a eulogy that he wanted to make all pretty to put in his files of "good speeches that he has made in the past." And since he the last type of typing apparatus that he has used was the old school typewriter... I was volunteered has his secretary while he dictated what he needed to have typed. It was like flashbacks of my childhood again... where he sat behind me, double checking my spelling, and telling me what I was doing wrong. Ahhhh memories.. :)

Before dad arrived, Carlene and I were playing with her camera... again. :)



yep... we're dorks.

By the way... I spy with my little eye something.... green. Hmmmm.... I wonder. ;)

How sad... my valentine backed out on me. :( Yep... my dad is up in Vancouver and we weren't able to have dinner tonight.

BUT on the bright side... I'm here at Beth's.... and for a good 30 minutes we were talking to David the telemarketer who was trying to sell us newspapers. That was hilarious...

David: Buy the newspaper
Beth: We have no money
David: Buy the newspaper
Me: I steal my parents' newspaper
David: Buy the newspaper
Beth: I read the news on the internet

David: Buy the newspaper
Me: I spend my money on booze
David: So why are you alone on Valentines?
Me: Cause...
David: What are you?
Me: Filipino
David: OooOoo.. you flipino girls are all cute and trendy at the clubs.
Me: Thanks.
David: So your other roommate must be the luckiest guy... (oh... Beth told him I was another roomie)
Me: Yeah. We prace around in our panties all day and night.. its like a continious slumber party.
David: Nicole.... Try the newspaper for a week.... if you don't like it.. I'll give you my cell phone number and say "David... we don't want it anymore..." and then we can go clubbing. You, me and Beth.
Me: Um... give it up.

That went on for a while... he really was persistent... and he and a nice voice. Finally Beth had to call on the other line... and i had to lie to poor struggling salesman David.... and WHOO! hung up.
And now I think we're gonna go on a mini road trip. :) Byies!

OH look... its midnight and you know what that means...

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! *muah*

Hugs and Kisses to everyone... (except if you're a freaky bastard... or Manny cause he'll just respond with "K" or "Bite Me.")

So all the happy lovey dovey couples out there.... go get your groove on. The rest of us will stick together and have a wonderful blockbuster night. ;)

I remember back in elementary school when they used to pass out those little valentine cards... I used to analyze each card to see if there was a hidden meaning behind the simple card. The placement of the comma after Love in the ending.. Love, So & So... or Love So & So or if they even used "love" if it wasn't "From So & So." Yeah... I was a bit neurotic back then and always searching for this "love" thing at an early age. I think that me being overly eager to find it has made the wait so agonizing. *HEY!! DON'T ROLL YOUR EYES!! I'M SINGLE AND ITS VALENTINES DAY.. SO I'M ALLOWED TO LAMENT!!* But then again, who needs a boy when you have kick ass friends to remind you that boys are retarded *sorry guys... but you are sometimes.* and to go out and have fun with. And if you can't go out and have fun with them.. they're only a phone call away... and if you're lucky.. they're ditching class so then you can have a truly long girly chat. *HI KATHY!*

Well, then I guess that means I have a plethora of Valentines tonight. :)

Last night, I had this dream where I ran into one of my old crushes. And so we were happily chatting up a storm and since I was feeling comfortable and pretty open, I told him about how I used to like him and all... and then he responded.. "oh my gosh... I totally thought you were cute too! But I was too shy to try anything."

Yeah... I woke up wanting to slap myself hard.

But then I figured that if it went the other way around... where he said... "oh my gosh... that totally sucks cause I didn't like you at all back then"... then I would have wanted to slap myself even harder for allowing myself to get rejected in a DREAM.

Oh well.. at least it didn't happen in real life! :)

Discovered that I've gotten into this morning ritual before I go to class: Wake up to oldies and stay in bed bargaining with myself that I'll get up after "this song" or "the next song". Then turn on my computer and bust my Winamps as loud as it can get and back into bed... stay in for another 10 minutes.. or until Enrique Iglesias's ESCAPE plays. (its such a "wake up and feel energized song"... cept for the part when he says "you can run you, can hide, but you can't escape my love"... kinda freaky don't you think?) Get up, open the windows, brush teeth and wash face all while dancing in my pajamas. By then Tweet's OOPS OH MY comes on and I'm fighting my closet trying to find something to wear. Dance in front of mirror to see that outfit is cute enough... Make bed, grab bookbag, run downstairs... only to run back up because I left my cellie... and then back downstairs... and then back up because I've forgetten several things.... back down... get shoes... into car... and off to school. :)

exciting huh. (you're rolling your eyes... I know you are.)

Well, today is Ash Wednesday and I'll probably go to mass later on at 5. *note to self... its a fish day and stay away from the chocolate for the next 40 days*

Had a membership drive today... I could hug the guys from Cal Poly who came out and helped today. We had this one member, Maria, who just grabbed a stick and started screaming "JOIN MY CLUB" and pointing at passerbyers... wow. Never tried that tatic. At least we were noticed and got quite a few signups. :) I'm back in planning mode for the Foothill banquet... hopefully it will all work out. :) So COME... the day isn't definite, nor is the place or the time... but come! :)

OK... so I was going crazy earlier today trying to get pictures on this sucker... *Melissa knows... I asked her like 10 times to check this over and over again to see if she saw anything inside the "boxes"... so forget all the FTP and geocities stuff... I'm sticking to good ole YAHOO PHOTOS. :) There will be more stuff there.. *pinky swear*

What kind of guy listens to KOST? I'm not making any judgement calls here... but I'm just wondering. I was listening to it and there was this chick calling in. Well apparently she called in last Friday and she was really depressed. So I guess she went online and made this "KOST CONNECTION" with some dude and now her and this new guy have been talking all weekend and she dedicated "A Whole New World" to him just now. She was talking about how she hasn't met him face to face but how she thinks that he could be the one. ???? OK... if she's not thinking.. then I'm offically freaked out for her.

Pet Peeve of the day: How they have to put little hearts on the THURSDAY window during the weather forecasts. :P And even if I did have someone... I'd still be peeved by it. Thats just annoying.

Hmmmmm... what did I do today? Well went to class *duh* and then off to the lab where I pretty much finished my paper. :( Back to the camera store I guess... Been trying to get back into the hang of things. When I went in last week, I pretty much jumped into it and so a lot of my prints weren't so great... but today... actually took time to make tests sheet and play with filters etc. Even have one really good picture that I actually am proud of. :)

OH! The Canadians were robbed of that gold medal in Pair Figure Skating!! ROBBED I TELL YOU!!!

Oops... I forgot. :)

The other day while at BJs... after the Magic Auction... I ran into an old friend... Carolyn Erdman... back from the Holy Name days. Well, it turned out that she's just recently engaged! :) Yeah... she had that whole "I'm so happy and in love" glow about her not to mention the RING!. So that makes 2 girls from my kindergarten class now who have found their "mate" and have made it offical. I'm jealous as hell... but genuinely happy for her... we lost touch during high school but then we had the same Poli Sci class at CSUF when we were freshmen... and she had told me about her relationship with Nick back then. So YAY for her. I think I may have stolen her thunder somewhat by telling her that Nicki had already gotten married in July... therefore making her the 2nd girl from the class that we know of... She was suprised when she heard that, I'm sure she wanted to be the first. (who wouldn't!)... but HEY.. at least she's engaged! Lucky lucky girl...

"There's nothing you can do about it.. that the way life is..." wise words that made me feel 100 times better. Thanks Carlene!

Sunday.. the designated "family" day... so I spent the day with my mom. Church...some shopping and then back home to re-arranging the garage. This probably was our 10th time rearranging that puppy and it still is a work in progress. Mom has this vision of getting shelves and having a giant wall of shoes inside the garage since the carpet is white inside and she's paranoid about having dirt on them. Yep. Fun stuff. Then Carlene came home from her snowboarding trip to Mammoth and proceeded to show off the bruises on her ASS to me. Yep... double the excitment there. :) Yep. Family day. :)

I decided that I'm going to give up chocolate and cussing for LENT.... so I made a batch of brownies. Sorta like the last hoorah before Wednesday. So please be a sweetheart... don't be evil and tempt me. THANKS!!

feeling better... church can do wonders... =)

Coming home to a cold house makes me incredibly sad. When we left, I felt guilty, but then again... I felt free and happy that things would be different. Now I guess, the impact of the guilt is slamming me in the face... hence this funk.

I remember Carlene telling me that when we left, the house in San Dimas got cold. That there was no warmth in it and it was just plain depressing. So in a way, its good that we sold it so then Dad wouldn't be alone to face all of it. But think, for that year before we did sell it, he was there by himself... and unlike me when I get home, I know that mom will eventually come strolling in at 8pm... no one was coming home.

The cold makes me feel like a bad daughter... or more appropriately a "cold" and selfish daughter who at the time didn't care about her fathers needs and went with what she needed... a sister who let her younger sibling get stuck in the middle of the drama... and overall a horrible person for allowing the people I love get hurt so badly.

I really should just let it all go for the past is in the past... forgive and forget... thats what dad was always trying to get me to think... but it always come rushing back to me with the empty cold house.

Which drink are you?

Yeah... you don't know how many times I had to take the tests to get THOSE results. ;)

Gotta love MASH!

Your husband's name is Brad Pitt and you have 3.14 children. You're a professional hand model who drives to work every day in a black big fancy mercedes.
It's truly a wonderful life when you consider the countless romantic nights you have spent with Brad Pitt in your shack in swanky las vegas.

Thats right baby...

Can we say that I ROCK!?!? ;) Yeah... I'm getting incredibly big headed... but hey... I so do! What what my great achievement?? Well... since you asked... I got the DSL working!! :) Whooohooo!! Ok.. so all you computer techies are like.. "ok dork.. its not that HARD" and yeah sure I just put the outlets in the right places and plugged it in... and then it started grinding... and the BAM! DSL. ;) So I guess Carlene and I won't have the AOL *one screenname per account* battle when I'm here and shes in Long Beach and she won't accuse me of stealing her thunder if she gets knocks offline. Who wants to party??

Wow... its downloading songs pretty fast... I hope my computer can handle it.

Its like the sun is shining a bit brighter... birds are chirping a bit louder... mp3s are clearer.... and my little corner has suddenly transformed into a haven of ultimate computer geekiness.

Sometimes its hard to believe that people actually come and read this. I know that my friends do read it on occasion... (Hi Guys!!) and there are probably some folks that I don't know that read it too. (Um.. hi? Please don't be freaky.) And I'm definitely cool with people reading it... (HELLO.. I am publishing all my crazy and dorky antics on this for all the world to see.) But I guess I feel that I'm supposed to be responsible with this... make sure that no one gets hurt, try not to give people the wrong idea about me, tell everyone to recycle their cans, etc. Also, I like to think I'm honest with myself when I use this... cause its not only my way to entertain you guys.... but its my way to vent and to reflect on my life. I like to think I put of myself into this and this whole "Learning to Tell Time" thingie is a giant reflection on who I am. Well if you guessed I'm a silly, dorky girl who has her "drama" on occasion and enjoys the color pink... well then you win. (your check is in the mail... really.)

Well... I have NO idea where I'm going with this. Soooooooooo back by popular demand...

*Long time no see* Miss me? ;)
1) I'm grateful for the chance to really get to know people. To have been able to make new friendships and streghten the ones that I have... I really don't know where I would be without my friends.
2) I'm grateful for my dad. I really don't say this enough. Perhaps because the relationship wasn't so great in the past and I'm just adjusting to how things are now... but I pray that I could be a better daughter for him. That I can open up and let things be... I need patience and lots of love.
3) I'm grateful for whoever reads this... thank you for caring. And if you want me to rot in hell... gee.. thanks for thinking of me! Thats sooooo sweet!! :)

Hmmmm... one day... 3 divisions. :) Do we get an award or something?

Yesterday, (technically earlier today but you know how blog works) Beth and I met up to do some CONVENTION PROMOTION! (Psst. GO TO CONVENTION!) So we started with my home club... and then it was off to UCI where we were late... but then luckily Mikie was there... and he was doing some promotion for his Magic auction so he offered to drive us to UCLA to do some more promoting! The drive over there and back was sooo awesome... MIKIE YOU ARE TOO COOL! :) I haven't laughed like that in such a long time. Who knew we can go so far on a tassell tangent. ;) Finally after our long day, it was off to dinner at In&Out and a little gawking at the Pepperdine baseball team.

I'm definitely feeling better... had a GREAT day and a kick ass night. :) Its amazing what pentel markers and pokemon stickers can do for the soul.

I sometimes wonder what happened to my life.

I don't think my dad thinks I'm funny. Our dinners mainly and usually consists of us talking about how everyone else is doing and him lecturing me on credit card bills and leadership/management skills. Every so often, I try to be light hearted and silly... but I don't think he seems to get it. He gets this "Um.. OK" look (its not confusion... more like... a "Riight" look) and then goes back to the serious conversation or on the topic where he has control of. I guess we need more dinners to really be able to get to know each other so that we're both comfortable. At least its something. And its way better than how it was 4 or 5 years ago...

Some good news... :) Found out that my dad's medical insurance will cover me until I'm 26!! Whooo hooo!! I was getting scared cause it used to be 23... and so there was REAL pressure for me to graduate... and YES I wanna graduate as soon as I can... but it takes some weight off of my shoulders. :) See.. I made a joke about how I could stay in school forever and take up every major... and my dad gave me this "don't you DARE think about that" look. He's a weird guy. He said that I should look for guys with clean shoes, clean nails, and has a wallet thats not disorganized and full of reciepts. Gosh.. I just wanted someone who's sweet, straight, funny, and outgoing. Now I have to inspect nails and wallets?? OH and keep in mind the "RULES"? Grreeat.

My family left this morning... so now the house is once again quiet. I don't know if I should be happy to have my own room back again... or sad because there's no BUZZ around the house and its cold as heck in here. My cousin Esther decided to name her stuff snake "nicole." YAY? Cute and flattering I guess... but its a neon orange and furry snake. Took a lot of pictures of her and the baby... and now they're up on the fridge. :) As well as Esther's drawings of rainbows and hearts...

I went to class this morning, but discovered that I left my developing tank at home. UGH. So I'm back here... blogging... and probably will be going back within the hour so that I can finally finish my assignment. Procrastination at its finest? I don't think so... I have all day to play in the lab so its all good. Then its off for a date with dad. :)

Since I really had no reason to watch the SUPERBOWL... I went to the Getty instead to go play with my camera and spend some quality time with the family. :) Suprisingly, there was sort of a crowd over there... mostly women, fobby asain tourists, gay men, and the straight men that they dragged along whom I assumed had no reason to watch it as well. Anyways, had a good time over there... was able to get some good shots and now I'm eager to get into the dark room tomorrow to see how they turn out. :)

Afterwards, went to Citywalk for dinner at Buca *oh my gosh...INSANE... thats all I have to say.* and thats where I saw the last 2 minutes of the Superbowl. Well... sorta. Weird thing was that when I was over there during the Laker playoffs last year... it was CROWDED. Hundreds of people were sitting on the floor in front of Hard Rock watching the jumbo-tron. But when we got there today, it was your usual number of people there.

OK.. but at church this morning... it was CROWDED. I assume it was people making last minute pleas for their Superbowl team to win. Either that... or they all saw the "light" or something.

Carlene and Esther arguing...
Esther: You! You! You!
Carlene: You! You! You!
Esther: You! You! You!
Carlene: You! You! You!.... infinity times 100!!
*silence*
Carlene: Yeah.. THATS RIGHT!

**Esther is 6 years old.

Family visiting. There are 11 people in the house... 2.5 bathrooms. Its been fun. :) My aunt brought her baby and we've basically been playing all day. Thea is adorable. She looks like a peanuts character or betty boop. Very animated. And the my other aunt brought my cousin Esther, who is 6 years old. She's really sweet and VERY talkative. Actually, its funny cause I discovered I am SOOOO my mothers daughter when I found myself teaching Esther how to roll up socks and turning it into a game with her. She was helping me fold laundry. :)

Well since there are 11 people here... and only 4 bedrooms, Carlene gave up hers and shacked up with me last night. OK... well that was sorta uncomfortable. First of all, I have a thing for sleeping on the left side of the bed. Unfortunantly, the left side is against the wall... so in order to get there, I had to crawl over my sister since I came home late. And then instead of her sleeping on the right side of the bed, she's in the middle and NOT BUDGING. So I was pretty much smushed up against the wall and Carlene. When I woke up this morning, some of the pictures on the wall were crooked cause I assume that whenever I moved.. I would hit the wall... and perhaps kicked or hit them askew.