Sometimes I stop and think "Mom... are you smoking CRACK!?!". She really is something... she would probably make a very colorful Ronald Dahl character. I think that she is the reason why my sister and I are pretty "witty". (some may say that more like SMARTASS but I like to think of it more as "quick wit".) When we were younger if we lost or misplaced something.... or was just BLIND... we asked mom for help. Her response would be "WHAT WILL I DO IF I FIND IT?" I guess to any other child in this situation, it would have been considered a threat. A "find your own damn toy and let me finish painting my nails... cause if I find it then you'll really get it for interrupting me" kind of thing. But in our oh so crazy household, it was the breeding ground for sarcasm. Sure, we took her seriously at first. But then as she kept on using this line over and over as we kept on loosing things, our comebacks became more varied. "Um.. Give us a good beating??" "Um.. give it to me?" "Um.. find it?" "Dance for joy?" "Really.. what would you do if you find it?"

I think my mom's sole purpose of getting a cell phone is to call me when I'm at home... to make sure that in 5 minutes I'll be out in the garage, ready to collect the groceries in her car

Actually, I think my parent's sole purpose of having kids was so that they don't have to clean the house. :) oh you laugh... but I think its true. For example... when Carlene and I were younger, we'd go swimming. (hence for that reason NO ONE is allowed to see our pictures during the "swimming phrase." We were DARK kids wearing NEON. ugly ugly ugly.). Well on our way out to the pool, my dad would stop us and say.. "while you guys are out there... can you guys scrub the alge off of the walls?" Sure it was fun playing with the brushes... but for the first 5 minutes!! It had gotten to the point where I think that he was convinced that he had this little army of poolboys/girls and he would bust out the brushes when our little friends would come over swimming.

I grew up thinking the vacuum was a large HEAVY toy.

I think my parents had this idea that Carlene and I would be the finishing touches in their dream of having a BAND. They would make us practice our piano and watch THE SOUND OF MUSIC... so that we can aspire to be like the VON TRAPP family. Mom would have us perform for her with the karaoke... put on our dance costumes and sing the Spinners' "Working my way back to you babe." or the Carpenters "Please Mr. Postman." It was easy performing for mom and dad at home... but then they wanted to show us off at parties and flipino events... and we'd break down and cry hysterically. Well I guess it was a "performing" thing in general cause even when asked to play the piano for guests... I'd have to be hauled out from the comforts of my bedroom, tears streaming down my face, and hiccupping as I'd play Fur Else. I was such a baby back then. (don't you dare say... "and you still are!")

Oh there are more crazy antics that our parents made us do.. but they are just WAAAYY to embarassing to write about... or even tell. I'm cringing even as I remember them. And if I did... then I surely would get a beating from my mom. :) Ahhhh memories.

I'm going through this weird funk at the moment. I don't know what it is... Maybe its this damn cold weather. I guess usually I'd be all "YAY ITS COLD!! I GET TO BUNDLE UP AND BE ALL CUTE AND COLD." But it was totally unexpected. Sure its January and technically still winter... but we're in SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA! The other week it sunny! The whole coldness just doesn't motivate me to go out... yeah I go to school... but I run out of my car into the classroom... and out of the classroom into my car... and then straight into the house. Hmmmmm.

OR maybe its because I've been reading this really depressing book. You'd think it would be damn hilarious since its Margaret Cho's memoirs... and there ARE parts in it that are funny... but gosh, it makes me wanna put her out of her misery... and put myself out of this new found misery since I can sorta relate with her with some of the issues. (just not the whole excessive sex, drug, booze parts.)

Maybe its because I'm having these horrible CRAMPS and I pretty much just wanna bundle up in bed (where its WARM!!), continue reading the depressing book, and munch on some form of chocolate while I bargain with myself that by eating it... I will spend an extra 10 minutes on the elipitical... that is if I can haul my ass out of the WARM bed and into the gym.

I dunno... but I've been driving myself mad and probably making myself more miserable by listening to KOST 103.5, belting along with Whitney Houston to "I HAVE NOTHING" while taking a shower. OH MY GOSH... yeah... it could be KOST.. the other night there this sad sad letter from one chick who broke up with her boyfriend... wait... i think the boyfriend broke up with her cause of something she did.... I dunno.. but it was so depressing and she was all apologetic... and she requested Peter Cetera's "HARD TO SAY I'M SORRY." I was ready to pour shampoo into my eyes cause that made me so sad!!

I think ultimately... I'm lonely. UGH. Pathetic huh. But think about it, these past few weeks, my mom was off and Carlene was here. There was always someone here when i got home... but now with everyone off and doing their own things... I come home, the house is empty... and I am alone. I study. When I'm not studying I'll spend quality time on my computer waiting for someone to entertain me or read some bittersweet romantic work of fiction. ITS SAD!! I don't mind staying at home... its comfy. This past weekend, I did nothing really but stay home... I was hella bored... but I was bored with my sister which made it interesting... somewhat.

I have no idea how I can fix this... I guess is something that I have to deal with cause ultimately I'm going to grow up and there is a possibility that I will be alone. Back in the days of San Dimas it was easy cause Melissa was down the hill, down the street and up the hill... Lisa was down the hill, into Glendora and up the mini hill, and Tam wad down Grand. Hell, Xanti was 5 houses away too! So it was relatively easy to call someone up and kick it. But now I'm out here in the booooooonnies. And everyone had their own lives... doing their own thing.... down by their own schools. Gosh... I really miss those easy days.

Ok... I need some milk.

P.S. sorry for such a whiny and depressing blog. I really don't like reading other folks whiny and depressing blogs cause those either make me 1) depressed as well or 2) hella annoyed at the person cause its like "dammit!! snap out of it!" so if I make you feel any of those... I really am sorry. I promise to be more cheery and happy next time. :)

Don't you hate it when you go shopping and you try on clothes... and the clothes have a massive amount of static on it... but then you come out of the dressing room looking like you just got the shag of a lifetime because it was rubbing against your hair? And you don't realize that you look like this until you get home and you look at yourself in the mirror? Yeah... it sucks.

"Lately I been thinking ‘bout you, cause you've been creeping in my dreams..."

Went to a TV taping of "Grounded for Life" today... it was good. LOOOOONNNG... but entertaining. :) Haven't really watched the show before, but its pretty ok. The audience guy was kinda annoying though... but he was hilarious at times. They had this whole audience participation thingie where he got 5 guys... and made them dance *strip/sexydance/whatever you call it* to THE FULL MONTY... that was GREAT! Too bad I didn't have my camera to capture Armando in action. *yep ladies... he was PICKED!!* heheheheheh... AS for the girls... he picked 2 in the audience to karaoke. Thus, here is my new embarassing moment to add to the montage of horrifying memories....

Well the audience guy asked for girls to volunteer and since I was sitting next to LOUD LUC, he volunteered me. But the audience guy didn't pick me and went with other girls instead. Thats cool I though... until I see their karaoke songs they have to sing. OK.. I'm not going to brag that I'm like ALICIA KEYES or this HOT DAMN DIVA in the making... but I love to sing and yeah... I can carry a tune. SO when they started singing songs I knew that I can perform well, then I was bitter. Unfortunantly God was looking down at me and cursing me... so he sent down a sign... one of the cameras broke in half during the taping so they had extra time for another girl to karaoke. ME. yay.

SO there I was, my friends cheering, it was my moment to "shine"... and then my song is unveiled.. Aretha Franklin's RESPECT. A GOSH DARN FREAKING SONG.... and well.. I choked. It was horrible. Yeah... I was BAD. The key was too high, my throat was all constricted, and I just couldn't save myself. It was as if God came down and bitch slapped my ego. OH well.. what can I do now.. except cower in the corner and cringe everytime I hear that damn song. So much for getting discovered. :)

That ranks up there with me falling off the stage at the House of Delegates at Convention and when Joey Brunasso pointed out my broken bra strap chillingoutside my sleeve in the 8th grade while I had a crush on him. *stop laughing Keri*

Anyways, going on this download craze. :) SO if anyone has any suggestions.. do tell.

Playing with the template again and suprising myself with the fact that I CAN do this stuff. :) Got some new links. :) arent YOU excited!?!? first one is Michael's... its BLUE. :) Sure when he's here he walks around chanting "NEEKOL NEEKOL over and over again and talks in his oh so fobby accent... but he's pretty gosh darn cool. :) The other one is Richard's... he promises to write some uplifting, insightful, and Pulitzer prize winning stuff. We'll see... ;)

SO today... I was breathing.

Inhaled...

Exhaled...

Yeah... it was exciting. :)

Carlene is going CRAZY. She's insane... needs to go back to school i think. Apparently when I got online, she spent 305 minutes on the computer... SCARY.

Last night I was watching this lame ass flipino movie "Bakit Labis Kitang Mahal" (Why do I love you so much")... It was your typical cheesy filipino love story with Aga Mulach, Lea Salonga, and Ariel Rivera. Sandy (Lea) and David (Ariel) are engaged. Tommy (Aga) breaks up with his girlfriend Cynthia (who everyone, since they have thick accents, calls "CYN-CHA"), and is basically a bum. So David feels bad for Tommy and bring him along on his trip to the provence to visit Sandy who's staying with her Lola. Then David has to leave cause theres a family emergency leaving Tommy and Sandy alone in the provinces, where they kiss and instead of having sex, they caress each others faces for 3 minutes as a cheesy love song plays. 2 days later, David comes back. Tommy leaves and Sandy breaks up with David blaming him for their current situation cause he left in the first place. David leaves and Sandy goes to Tommy and asks him if he loves her, but Tommy feels guilty so he says NO and gets brutally bitch slapped. SO Sandy is pathetic and runs back to David and they decide that the wedding is back on. Tommy goes by the engagement party and is all depressed.. so he leaves. Unfortunantly, Cyn-cha's burly men gang comes and beats him up. David gets a call from the hospital and goes to visit Tommy and realizes that Tommy really does love Sandy even though they knew each other for 2 days...then he goes to Sandy and says hes letting her go so that she can be happy... and Tommy and Sandy live happily ever after. ALL in the span of about 3 hours! Funny thing is, I was soo enthralled by this movie, even though the picture was SOO bad, the mouths were not in sync with the actual voices, the sound was really off tune, the acting wasn't really oscar worthy, and the clothes were really UGLY... I couldn't stop watching it. And to think... I used to CRY over this movie with Harmony back when we were at SL... gosh... thats so lame!!

Class was good today... learned and all that terriffic stuff. I'm actually loving my classes this semester... even the history class which I thought would be a total bore BUT its been pretty interesting AND I find myself participating in the lecture... which is something I RARELY do. I think its incredible cause I may actually sound smart when I do because of all the reading I've been doing. *INSANE* huh.

Had a SHOPPING EXTRAVANGZA with Beth... well not so much of an EXTRAVANGZA... more like... looking up prices for Convention decorations. I love teacher stores... they're so much fun and so inspiring... and they make you want to get out there and start teaching so that you can buy all the cool classroom decorations and fun teacher stuff... like "GOOD JOB" sickers or "CLEAN AND WELL GROOMED" ribbons. :) It just made us realize how important it is to tell people that they are doing a "good job"... regardless of age. Words of encouragement are pretty powerful and can go a loooong way.

Hey.. which Babysitters Club girl did you want to be? I wanted to be Mary Ann cause she had Logan. ;) Beth wanted to be Claudia cause she was Japanese. hehehehehe.. woah flashbacks. Remember when Mary Ann broke up with Logan... and then they got back together like 10 books later?? I was worried there for a while that they weren't going to... but they did. YAY!

Carlene is still on her *Michael Withdrawal* and has woken me up every morning by climbing into my bed and hugging me. Its really sweet and makes me feel all warm and loved... even if I'm just a substitute. ;) This whole Carlene being home during her vacation has been really great... and I'm not the only one when mom goes off on her crazy ways...

Speaking of my sister... today she brought home some take out Chinese food for dinner... but unfortunantly her order got mixed up so instead of tofu and eggplants... we got chicken feet, liver and gizzards. *EWWWWW*

Justin sent me this link. :) its cute.. its like my own personal Dub-ya.... isnt he adorable!!?

OH.. Melissa sent me an email regarding yesterday's blog. :) At least I dont feel so foolish anymore. :)
aw i read ur blog! i totally feel u girl! i get all daydreamy like that too...all hoping that something might happen. shoot i be tearing up hella straw wrappers and reading into things. or the best is when u get a fortune cookie and u totally read into ur fortune. awwwww.....i'm getting sappy. i'm supposed to watch the wedding planner and my best friend's wedding with ralph sometime. i luv those movies. but yeah...i luv u too nic!!! and when valentine's day rolls around...FAKE BOYFRIEND!!! send urself flowers and candy. hehehehhe...jk jk. but yeah...no worries...maybe just one of these days ur MAN will surprise u! heheheh u never know. =)
-awwwwwww... I love you Mel!! :) And I'll send you a little sumptin sumptin on Valentines day... maybe a DAVID HASSELLHOFF cd... ;)

PS. hey JR!! It's CUTE! but still... a little something in that collection plate might SAVE you. ;)

I am such a girl. I have these foolish romantic notions that anything can happen. I look outside my window and knowing that though chances are slim, I secretly hope to see HIM out there waiting and planning to rescue me. I don't know who he is... but we all know we have these longings of a certain someone, who in a particular moment of your life, has captured your fancy. I tear straw wrappers into 2 and hope that it being knotless means the HE is thinking about me. I've invested a serious amount of change into fountains and prayed that just one of those wishes come true.

DoDo79: oh no

Yup. Nicole has gotten into her wishy/washy crazy girl relationship mode... EEK! First of all, let me admit that I'm jealous of those people who have HAD relationships. And then I'm jealous of those who are in them right now. I think its a gift to find one and to commit to one... an incredible gift that you need to put patience and love into it so then it can grow.

THAT WAS CHEESY and it sounded like something out of Haeflinger's religion class. (let me bust out with my "SECRETS OF STAYING IN LOVE" book...)

Maybe I've watched too much of A WEDDING STORY, read to many romance novels, or listened to KOST for too long... or maybe just maybe... I'm lonely.

That thought is really appalling. I don't think I am... I'm surrounded by friends and family that I love dearly... but I guess I feel like I'm missing something in my life. And *gasp* its may just be a *man* (god... that sounds so pathetic.)

OK.. so before you guys start puking over all this lamenting let me state this... I am not on the prowl nor am I desperate. I guess I'm just more aware and learning to keep all my senses open.

I think I overdid it with the "lets Karaoke all the CARPENTER'S SONGS afternoon." Why do birds suddenly appear.... ;) AAACCCK!!

MmMMmmm... in absolute state of relaxation. MmMmM... hottub. mMmMmmM warm and comfy bed waiting for me. MmMmmM...

Once again, more organizing and clearing of boxes in the garage. I think the dust is definitely getting me sick *cough* But at least I got to get away for a good 15 hours when I drove to Woodland Hills for the Board meeting. :)

The 45 minute drive was GREAT! I love the 101 when its midnight and no one is on it. Listening to Getz, seeing the lights, and those moments to reflect... priceless.

Got to the hotel... got to see Kathy! (Yay.. went through Kathy withdrawals these past 2 weeks), chatted with Beth in the bathroom while Kathy was sleeping but then decided it was foolish to talk in there so we watched bad soft porn with Lou Diamond Phillips in Ryan, Sukhyung and Kenny's room with Chrissy... watched Kenny freak out while watching the soft porn...

Ken UCR: that HBO porn was "scary"

Finally went to our room and cried about pillows to Jean... Slept. 3 hours later... 8:15am rise and shine... and cheerfully woke up the others. BOARD MEETING! And then go back to the room to watch NEWSIES with Christian Bale (grrrr) on TV. Lunch, drive Chrissy home and sleep.

And so now I'm home just chilling with Carlene. She's going through Michael withdrawals cause he drove back home today. (BYE MICHAEL!!! I wasn't able to say goodbye... but thanks sooooooooooooooooooooo much for everything!! You good boyfriend.) So as we were watching the Golden Globes, she kept on molesting me...hugging me, making me pet her head and hold her hand... crazy I tell you! Oh I'm so happy for Nicole Kidman.. Carlene and I were snaping our fingers in Z formation cheering her on and screaming "Uh UH... Tom!!! She don't need you!!" and so on... then we realized what geeks we were for doing it. :) Good times I tell you.

Oh speaking of geeky... did anyone see the Chili's "BABY BACK RIBS" commerical with Nsync singing?? OK... I was soooo excited to see my baby (Lance) sing AND to actually hear his deep *sexy* voice during his solos... but then... I realized... it was a really GAY commerical and that they totally sold out. So the whole experience was bittersweet I guess... I'll probably be elated to see it again but at the same time I'll bow my head in shame and embarassment.

OOOooOOo :) I'm conviced that I am a GENIUS once again. My sad, pathetic, non-computer knowing ass just added LINKS to this baby!! YEP!! Check them out... its down there... underneath the scary pics and archives!! I swear... its these little things that make me happy.

PS: Luc... you know you don't need my "Sleeping Beauty" books cause you probably have them on home video. You know..right next to your GAY MIDGET PORN collection. ;P

Just got back from Luc's birthday dinner... YAY LUC'S OLD!! :) He got not ONE... BUT 2 pizookies!! Wowie!! :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUC!! *muah* Remember... "nobody likes you when you're 23...." ;)

Today, mom had me go to the apartment so that I could wait for the Salvation Army guys to come and pick up the washing maching and some other items. So then these 2 guys come and they start collecting the things. And so... *keep in mind that the apartment is COMPLETELY empty.
Younger Salvation Army guy: Sooooo... you're moving?
Me: Yep! We got a new house!
YSMG: Thats cool!
And he picks up a bag and walks out the door. While the door is still open, I hear him talk to himself...
YSMG: Well THAT was a stupid question!!
I thought that was cute and something that I probably would do and probaby have done before. *Actually, I think I HAVE done it before...8th grade.. the fiesta... me asking Paul Shields for the time while I had a watch on... and then an endless babble of an explaination of how my watch was really slow and not reliable.. blah blah blah* (Stop laughing Keri.) The thing is... I wouldn't have noticed that it was a rather dorky question to ask with the apartment all bare... but since he pointed it out accidently, here I am writing about it for you. :)

SO while I'm decorating the house and my room... I decided to redecorate my computer in the process.. you know so that it matches the room and just so it won't feel neglected during this whole moving deal. So I'm looking at winamp skins and lo and behold... I find an Olsen Twin winamp skin. EWWWWWWWWWWWWW... maybe its cause they're a pair of preteens who like have millions of dollars for being weird looking babies and really not being talented as they grow older, but I really don't like them. They're up there with carrots and circus carnes. Ick! They are something that Melissa and I would add to our list people to mock... like David Hassellhoff and Yanni. Now if Mary Kate and Ashley came out with their own album, then I expect to hear a loud SQUEAL and BANG of a giant ass pig flying and slaming into my window.

OH... SOS! My mom is a psychopath!! *cry for help*

I got an email from Beth regarding my pencil collection. :)

When you die from falling off your bed, I want you to leave me your pencil collention, and I'LL get all excited that you left me a bunch of pencils.

In return, I'll leave you my candy and mint tin collection (a big altoids and a little altoids tin, so they can be daddy and son, of course, and a few other random tins), my button collection (even though you already have the same circle k ones, like the i-heart-ny one), and my oh-so-fun free-jacked-from-grocery-stores-and-the-hustler-store postcard collection.

Yay!

=)

-beth

oh my gosh!! My new matress came in today and I swear, I feel like a princess. You know... like from that one fairy tale THE PRINCESS AND THE PEA... cause the matress is so thick and high... if i were to fall off my bed, it would be a tragic and oh so clumsy death. OOOO.. I can't wait to go to sleep... I think I might have to share the bed cause my sister has oh so conviently fallen asleep on it after whining that she wants to sleep in my room... :P It sucks cause she KICKS big time and flings her arms around... not to mention she laughs like a psychopath in her sleep. AACK!!

Its been a week since I made my resolutions and sadly enough I think I only fufilled 2 of them. Ok.. note to self... work on them.


Carlene and I are getting back into this whole video game thingie with the Xbox... Shrek wasn't all that great, but Michael rented DEAD OR ALIVE 3 and thats so totally kick ass. Talk about venting out your frustrations... Its funny cause these graphics looks so real and the girls who fight in it.. THEIR BOOBS JIGGLE!! its so weird and freaky. Like the makers of this game were all in this videogame lab trying to make the boobs more life-like... um yeah.

Still haven't remembered what the GENIUS idea was... well curse it all to hell.

Anyways, I found my old pencil collection... yup... I used to collect pencils.. actually it was my mom's idea for my sister and I to collect pencils.. so basically anything that was pretty and made out of wood and lead, we bought and put it in our collection. But the thing was... we weren't allowed to use them cause.. you know.. it was a collection. SO here I am, 10 years later, with this giant basket filled with pencils... and I have no need for them. And I don't think I'll start up again cause what am I going to do with it... display them? maybe... but most likely they will stay in my garage. Like I understand collecting stamps cause one day it could be valuable.. same with baseball cards... but pencils?? pencils that you don't use... Like I know people who collect salt and pepper shakers... yeah.. thats cool you can use it as decorations... but when I die, you think someone is going to be happy that I left them a bunch of pencils?? Maybe... or I'll just start using them... I dunno. Anyone want a pencil?

I'm in the depths of dispair....

Conan O'Brian got married this past weekend. :(

WHY OH WHY COULDNT IT BE ME!!!!!

So I was walking around campus thinking to myself... and I had this really good idea right? So I made a mental note to remember this "idea" so that I can put it in here and like all 6 of you can go... "Wow Nicole, that was really insightful." And now I'm blogging... BUT I DONT REMEMBER!! :( Sad huh. I am my mothers daughter... My mom has the tendency to leave you hanging with her "GET ME THE THING..." or "WHERE'S THE...." and not finish her sentance for the longest time... its been leaving Carlene and I baffled and frustrated for the last 20 years.

New Home Update: The hottub works!! :) Mom, Carlene and Michael went in last night... I didn't cause I wasnt feeling well. :( But at least its good to know that it works and when i do feel better, I can just chill there... outside in that jungle of a backyard.

I've been to Home Depot so many times these past few days and I'm learning a bit about being handy and all. Perhaps I might take some of those Sunday classes so that I can learn how to weld or fix the plumbing if needed. Its such a great place... cute muscular guys in orange vests, who know a lot about building and wires and stuff... its soo cool!!

Home Depot AND Walmart... YAY 13 hangers for 88 cents!! Now my closet is all organized and happy.

Hmmm... so what did I do today...
-School.. yay?
-Went to Ikea... got curtains and a curtain rod but when i got home... found out that the curtain rod I got wasn't long enough. I was kinda sad about that... but on the other hand I got the lamp and everyone and their mother has ($10 NOT lamp) and the bathroom fixtures to replace the scary old ones.
-Went to Home Depot...
-Came home and studied.. somewhat. :)

I'm trying to retrace my steps today so that I can figure out my oh so genius idea... *UGH!* Just watch, I'll remember it and it won't even be all that great. Curses!

No DSL... but at least we have a phone line! :) Went to school and came home to find a package for Carlene on the front patio.. ITS HER X BOX! :) Our home is complete...

Sunday, January 13
(2:33pm)
Its cold in this Mo-Fo!! Last night it was freezing and since I left a majority of my old sheets at the apartment... I was pretty screwed. Woke up to my mom's calling of wanting to move motherload dresser and more furniture.. but I slept through it. (it was like 7am!!) So instead of moving the crap, she baked scones.. YAY THE OVEN WORKS!! Breakfast AND THEN hard manual labor. (Where are the strong guys when you need them! Big furniture, stairs, and 3 women don’t mix… unless you’re a super duper buff strong woman who competes on ESPN competitions where you do weird flexi-dance and can break wood with your baby toe)

So now we're taking this "break" cause the original owner came over and my mom is chit chatting a storm. Carlene went slightly insane because she lost the measuring tape and for a while her and Michael were being all “dorky” on MY bed and I started screaming "YOU HAVE YOUR OWN ROOM!" over and over again. Hehehe… its all like how it was when we were younger….

It looks like its going to be a long night because my mom wants to paint her room now too... and lets not forget more unpacking. ACCK! And I have school tomorrow! DOUBLE ACK!!

(11:12pm)
Let me take that back… yay school! Yay break from moving! Yay fresh air!

Michael, Carlene and myself got back from our munchie run… we all look so crappy and speckled with paint. We probably looked like a bunch of bedraggled bums at the Walmart just now. Mom’s room is now green. It’s a light pastel green… it kinda reminds me of mint chip ice cream. But when we add the bed, curtains, etc.. its gonna look like a room out of the Real World. Actually, its Carlene’s goal to make it look like the Real World house. She just finished spongepainting our bathroom and it looks awesome…

Actually today wasn’t too bad… in fact I got to take a little reading break while mom and Carlene were at Home Depot getting more paint… :) I guess its like I’m eager to see and live IN the final results… but its just painstakingly long and tedious to get everything organized and in its place.

Supposed to get DSL tomorrow… :) Can’t wait.. now I can be like one of those crazy folks who keep their compupter on all the time and have their away message on constantly… but I don’t think I could cause EEK!! Electricity bill. Also I’m getting sick of my current MP3 collection… need to get some variety or just some new songs. This has been the only thing I’ve been listening to lately other than the radio and even there it’s the same thing over and over again. If I hear that Usher song one more time.. I think I might just puke.

Saturday, January 12
Since there is no access to the internet here at the moment... I'm just writing on my word and then when I do get it.. I'll just cut and paste. I am convinced that I am a GENUIS! :)

(12:12am)
Home sweet new home… :)

We’re all moved in… as for settled… well not just yet. The whole process started Friday afternoon when Mom, Carlene and I went to Home Depot for paint and painting supplies… OK. This is a warning to all those who enter my room. Its pink. I like it… its happy and kinda sorta bright. But not nauseatingly bright… at least I don’t think so. So on Friday night, myself, Carlene and Michael came here and started painting. We did my room first… which probably wasn’t the greatest of ideas since 1) its our first time painting 2) I have 2 colors 3) we have only semi idea of what we were doing. With all of these factors added up, the result is a somewhat perfect job… true its only in my eyes but these imperfections are really pissing me off. Well we painted Carlene and my room from 10pm to 4am… and let me say that the paint fumes made the whole project a lot more enjoyable.

Saturday… it was something.

In addition to Tito Wilson, Adrian, and Adrian’s friend John helping out, my mom had asked 2 of her co-workers to help… which I might add were male. :) Carlene then joked that these guys were mom’s new boyfriends… and it just got more interesting as we watched these two guys fight for the heavy boxes and moving with such ferocity.

Thank God for UHAUL!

So after loading the major stuff from the apartment and bringing over here, Carlene and I left on this quest to get food, keys, and fixtures to replace the old *and might I say ugly* fixtures on the walls. So back to Home Depot where we were almost lectured by this worker about male and female refridgerator parts and the importance of education. Um.. yeah…

Crazy mom was on a roll… calling for every freakout that she had and every lil reminder that she suddenly remembered. Poor mom… she was just way stressed… but gosh.. calm down and be happy!! We have a new house!! :)

Back home… *heheheheh… its our HOME!* to find Chelle, Melissa, Tita Bambot, and Nick just chilling and helping out. Then Tita Maria comes bringing Joey and Noel to help out as well. And then.. Melissa and Tita Josie… and then Joe and Armando. :) It was like a moving party…

*I need curtains…. Its nice to be able to look out my window as I’m typing… but… still… I feel a bit exposed… and I’m scared that our new neighbors might see me up late and can’t sleep cause my room is too bright and reflecting*

Carlene’s room is all nice and cozy… like it was straight out of a Christopher Lowell episode… mine on the other hand is still lacking the touches of home… my sheets and bedding should be coming in soon… not to mention a new mattress, figuring how to position pictures and do-dads… and I still need to take care of the lighting situation. *ACK!*

But other than that… I’m happy. Tired, sleepy, and high on paint fumes…. But mostly happy.

Afterwards, kick back and relaxed with Joe and Mondo watching MY DOG SKIP. *sobs* Let me just say that it is pretty much written in blood that if those 2 guys ever need help… I’ll so be there. If they say… “hey Nicole.. we need a third person to jump off a bridge with…” I would say “SURE THING!! Let me get my parachute!“ Something about carrying mattresses, desks, and other furniture up the stairs, assembling beds, painting rooms, replacing fixtures, etc makes you really grateful for OH SO STRONG friends. ;) OH even though Joe was singing to me the whole Fantasmic experience as I was trying to get the lights and lets not forget dancing like Michael Jackson as I was painting and Mondo said that my room looks like pepto bismal and made me watch sad sad movie that left me all depressed…still. THANKS!! Well.. really.. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH to everyone who came and helped… you guys are lifesavers!! *muah*

:) Still alive...

Carlene just got home... but she's feeling ill... so in the midst of my packing madness, I'll hear... "Nicooollle.... can you make me some soup!?!" or "Niicccooollleeee... can you make me some tea?" or "Nicoollle.... I waannnt popcorn!" as well as my mom's "Can you measure the fridge?" and "Stop by the house and cover the carpets!"... and to make things worse... Im supposed to have lunch with my dad tomorrow... and normally that would be great... but he's probably going to be somewhat depressing cause of this whole moving business and I don't know if I can deal with that guilt. ACCCKKK.... but on the bright side... it's all going to be over soon. :) And I found the perfect sheets at IKEA not to mention coordinating pillows, window treatments, and rugs! YAY!

So I owe my first born to this guy Joseph from my Education class today... I was so close to not getting into the class I wanted. I was begging and pleading and on the verge of tears when he matter of factly pointed out to the teacher that while she added 9 people last tuesday... 3 people didn't show up today... and well in a nutshell... she let me in. :) I guess thats pretty exciting stuff considering its a CLASS... :)

HELP!! Carlene is memorizing the entire script from "YOU'VE GOT MAIL" right next to me.... I guess its her way of trying to get her way... she wants the computer. She's a DORK! It was weird a while ago cause her and mom were watching REAL SEX on HBO... it was some documentary on swingers.. "Swing-stock"... yay? Lots of old naked folks having sex... ewwwwww. Its not even a turn on... its just gross. Yeah.. the conversation was just getting really freaky... my mom telling us about Swing Clubs in the area? EWWWWW!! Its like if you were to watch porn with your mom... YEAH!! its weird.

She's really going crazy for the computer... she grabbed my teddybear and is making it dance... while she chants "naked naked naked" over and over again. Now she's just doing ranchy things with it. OH HELP.



3 hours later...

What she had whined and begged to have been a "quick check of her email" was obviously a lie... ugh. :P I hate it when I'm suckered.

Moving... it has its moments. When you find something that you though you've lost... YAY! When you've fallen while carrying a box and waiting for consciousness... BAD. Going through some old things and reminincing about them good times.. YAY! Packing and moving in general... BAD. I think this is our 6th time moving during the last 3 years... its like we're in the witness protection program. I'm just excited cause it looks like this will be the last time moving for a while cause its our very own house! :) YAY HOUSE! YAY 2.5 bathrooms!! YAY bigger kitchen! YAY garage! Carlene will have her very own bedroom so no more of this living/bedroom... so everything is just yay! It'll be kinda like being back in San Dimas again... except for those obvious differences. Now if only we can get a new puppy then everything would be oh so perfect... but mom doesn't want to go through the heartbreak of losing another dog and is freaked cause the carpets in the house are white. Apparently there is a family here at the apt complesx who have a boston terrier whos pregant and who are going to sell the pupples.... *cross fingers* Remind me to make sad googily eyes at my mom... hopefully that will work.

Back to school.. its been... fun? Classes are interesting... teachers are interesting... parking is still crappy as ever. Been thinking about Kathy's theory on cute guys and community colleges... There are some cute guys roaming around, but never in my classes. HAHAHAH.. not like I have guts to talk to them or anything... but still... ;)

I know I'm 9 days too late... but I just gotta start somewhere huh... so here are my Jan 9 resolutions:
1) Go to church on a weekly basis... I've been pretty bad about this lately... and I always say to myself when I do go that I should, but when the times comes I find myself busy.. when really,,, I SHOULD go. So yeah... Sundays.. definitely... I need to make time.
2) Stop reading into things. Enough said.
3) Have more patience with people...
4) Save money!!
5) Make bed every morning. (baby steps....)
6) Refill the brita once I fill a glass... cause then if I don't...*poof* its empty and you have to wait like 5 minutes for that fresh clean water when you could have had it right then and there.
7) Try not to be so sensitive when it comes to family discussions
8) Go to the gym at least 4 times a week... every day would be GREAT but once again... babysteps.
9) Try to be a better daughter, sister, cousin, and friend. (talken from Jr... but altered for a girls view. )

OH speaking of JR... :) He said something completely brilliant on his blog...

The thing about crushes is that you act so gay when you're around that person. You always want to know if that person is going to be there and think "what am I going to wear" or "has she seen me in this before" if she is. Thank God that I act pretty normal around my crushes. I mean of course I try to act all "cool" or a bit more funnier but at least I'm not all dorky. I think the thing about crushes is that you cant let the people know about it because it'll blow your cover. You have to be sly yet suave at the same time.
(N. Savellano, 2002)

HAHAHAHA.. its so true! :) He's a genius... who likes to watch Michel Jackson.... YOU ROCK!!

China Dol7: I commend all those who want to be a teacher
spaznik: hahahaha...
China Dol7: I have no patients for kids
spaznik: make it sound like im selling my soul.
China Dol7: hahha
China Dol7: well let's just say this
China Dol7: if I have to be around 20-30 kids a day......
China Dol7: for 8 hrs a day..........
China Dol7: I would want to pull out my overies and throw it at my kids

I miss Tina... :) Tina was the one who got me into CKI back in the days... I was a lowly freshman and she introduced me to ditching classes and going to the mall instead...pretty much started me on this whole being spontaneous thing. One day, Tina, lil Tina, Mai and myself left school in hopes of meeting 98* over at Universal Citywalk... *ooo memories of crazy pre-teens climbing the walls and heartbreak* Anyhoo we just got to talking and catching up... makes you wonder how everyone you've come into contact with in your past is doing... hopefully everyone is good and maybe someday our paths will cross again. Well if you were a total jerk to me... then hopefully not.

Back to school... ickyness.

But on the bright side.... vacation ended with a great big smile. :)

Kathy pretty much adopted the saying... "I go wherever Nicole goes..." It was like a continous slumber party over here... playing with makeup... talking about boys... etc... now its just quiet and extremely messy cause of this moving madness.

Saturday night, went over to dad's for Tita Nene's birthday party... Mom came along. :) For a minute I thought she was going to bail cause she couldn't find parking and I wasn't expecting a full blown COSCA mahjong thing... and I'm sure neither did was she. But she stayed. :) You know what's weird? How when you're younger, a room can be so massive, but as you get older, it isn't as overwhelming anymore? Anyways, got to play with Baby Alicia... poor thing may have gained new horrible nick name "Bombalina"... but she's the baby in the family and she'll still be quite spoiled. The kids are getting bigger and I'm definitely feeling older. I discovered that I turned into one of those manangs/ates/titas who when approached by a younger cousin, I'll say... "where's my kiss?" :) Awwww.. got into conversation with Carlene, Jen, Angel, and Michelle about kids... Carlene only wants one cause they cost a lot and she wants to get her Mercedes CLK. :) Oh lordy....

After the party met up with Kathy and Manny to finally see LORD OF THE RINGS... (ok... theaters without stadium seating SUCK!) The movie was pretty awesome... makes me wanna go out and read the books. Kathy kept on OOOOOOing when Legolas came onscreen (not to mention throughout the whole SCORPION KING trailer!) Afterwards, got lost a bit in Long Beach... eh. Its just harder to see in the dark!!

Sunday, met up with Jean for lunch and said bye to Kathy.. *sniff* Came home and PACKED!! Left to pick up my cousin Michelle for a night of cousin bonding over at Downtown Disney since she's leaving to go back to the Philippines tomorrow. Met up with Bombie and Michelle (without Alicia), Carlene, Jen, Angel, Jr, and new adopted cousin Nonoy (Jr's friend..., life partner.. whatever. ;) Had dinner at Rainforest and played over at Build-a-Bear! YAY!! Its soo cute there.... first you get like the teddybear shell or skin... and then you stuff it... and then they make you get a heart, warm it with your hands, pump it, make a wish, kiss it, jump and spin around, and then they put the heart in the bear and stich it up and TA DA!! You have brand new teddy bear! It seems cheesy but the girly side of me thinks its all whimsical and the bear is the embodiment of all that I want. You know? heheh.. or no. :P to you then. We all got our bears and crazy Angel added sound to hers... so for $3 she has instant gratification cause when she's sad and depressed, she plans to squeeze hers and it will say.. I LOVE YOU. :) She proved it in the car. Then it was back to Dads for dessert and say goodbye to Tita and Michelle. hehehe.. Michelle said she would come back and visit again... when I get married. I told her not to hold her breath. ;)

Hi Melissa! I don't think you're ghetto. Emily is!! (but I didn't say anything...)

:) I'm so loving my vacation!! Too bad it all comes to an end on Monday...

Well yesterday, the original plan was to go clubbing, but by the time we got to Laura's we weren't feeling it. So instead, Melissa, Kathy, Beth, and myself drank a bit over there (crazy Beth and Kathy were soo out. Beth kept on singing.. "Im not a girl... not yet a woman.." ) and then we drove on down to the Hustler store and played.. ;) That store is so much fun... its not all downright filth and ickyness, its fun!! We were all in the porn section looking for those crazy porntitles... like.. "The 69th Sense" and "Thighs Wide Open"... heheheh.. yeah.. its sick.. but it was soo hilarious. :) And apparently some worker gave them a lil show with a suction cup?? I dunno... good times though.

Anyhoo, so afterwards, Laura basically just drove up and down hollywood cause Kathy wanted to see hookers.

That was interesting.

This morning, I went over to school to pay off my registration and this STUPID EVIL WHORE took my parking spot... like I was babysitting the lane and I had my blinker on and everything... and the bitch came and took it. ooooo.. there were these cute guys in the parking lot across from what would have been my parking spot and I'm sure Kathy and I gave them a good show with our screaming obsenities and flying middle fingers. SO rather than run her over or key her car... we wrote her a note.. basically telling her that she was rude and inconsiderate... blah blah blah.. is she blind or just stupid.. blah blah blah... hope her left ball falls offf... blah blah blah.. go to hell... blah blah... you know.. well anyways, we left it on her car, and when we came back, she left a note on my car saying..

GOD BLESS YOU.
FROM THE "WHORE" WHO TOOK YOUR PARKING SPACE.


??????!! She didn't even say SORRY!!! :( yeah... it was bad and I was pretty upset. Yeah, its just a parking space, but gosh, its so damn rude! I just think that the whole show that we gave those guys must have been really interesting. Hearing our muffled high pitched screams from inside the car and seeing me... arms flailing about and hitting my steering wheel... same with kathy... hehehehehe... at least when we turned to see them laughing at us, we could see that they sympathized and saw that the whore was a whore. :P Evil evil evil.... don't ever do that to anyone else cause it SUCKS!!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!! :)

I'm freaking tired, but I just wanna blog before I forget all thats been going on...

GO WEST:
Go West was awesome... A big huge YAY to Joe for doing such an kick ass wicked job. :) Well, it all kinda started on Thursday night when we all became this little chocolate kiss roses sweatshop over at Joe's. oooo.. and Kathy came down!! :) YAY! Spent the night at YMCA on Friday (were the girls went to watch KATE AND LEOPOLD... cute movie, some really really cute moments where you wish that all guys are like the character and the guys played basketball....) Saturday over at the Rosefloat decorating (ran off and showered at Beths, lunch and ice cream over at Paseo, and playtime at MAC), service project (yay cute puppets!), and broomball. :) Sunday mainly was just camping out on Orange Grove, screaming children and honking cars, and hiking up and down Colorado for fun. :) Attempted to watch BEAUTIFUL MIND but kinda sorta fell asleep during it... but made it back to the campsite on time for the COUNTDOWN!

YAY 2002!!! :)
Monday... Jan 1, 2002
1am.. decide to go home, but actually made it around 2:30am since I got lost in Pasadena. EH.

8am... was awaken by typical Carlene dogpile.. cept she "na na na'ed" Auld Lang Syne for 10 minutes... and gave up.

11am... wake up, take a shower, and lunch.

12pm... Leave for Universal Studios! :)
I haven't been there for the longest time so it was very different. :) Poor Carlene was bitching and whining about having to buy $1 poncho for Jurassic Park the ride.... cept for when the time came, her hoodie fell off and she was soaked. Hmmmmm... anything else... rode ET (where the computer couldn't pronounce Carlene's name and instead said "FRIEND."), Terminator was dope, and an hour wait for Back to the Future really wasn't worth it. Sucky thing is that the park closed at 6... and so we couldn't go on the tram ride... ooh well.

7pm: Dinner at Buca Di Beppo..
:) it was soo nice cause we got to eat in the kitchen and all the chefs and waitors were really sweet and friendly. :) Mom was going all flirty and dorky with them...

10pm.. get home and attempt to go to sleep.

10:30pm.. get call from Manny... "wanna go to vegas?"

Tuesday... Jan 2, 2001
12:30ish am: Kathy, Ellie, Carrie, Manny, and Mondo come and pick me up. OFF TO VEGAS!!

3ish am: eeek!! everyone is too sleepy to drive.. so we pull over.

5ish am: we wake up.. and back on the road.

6am.. get to vegas... walk around a bit.... and...

8am.. realize we're all really sleepy.... so go back to van and sleep.

11am.. wake up... go walk the strip...

5pm.. tired as hell.. decide to drive home.

9pm.. home sweet home...

and thats basically it. :) I'm freaking tired... but I had a GREAT time over in Vegas. :) heheheheh... for a while we were all.. WHAT THE HELL ARE WE DOING HERE... but it turned out all right. I've seperated them into HIGH POINT and LOW POINTS.
HIGH POINT: Watching pretty fountains dance at the Belliago.
LOW POINT: Sleeping in Mondo's Van over at the Parking Structure of Cesar's Palace.
HIGH POINT: Watching cool FREE M&M 3D movie over at the M&M store
LOW POINT: Brushing my teeth with my finger in the bathroom of Cesar's Palace.
HIGH POINT: Finally finding Tram from Monte Carlo to Belliago cause damn... that was a lot of walking beforehand and my feet were aching.
HIGH POINT: Seeing that THUNDER FROM DOWN UNDER billboard...
HIGH POINT: Really really neat building designs, art, and people watching....
HIGH POINT: Just being really stupid and dorky with friends in VEGAS BABY!! :)