Rainbows and butterflies

Today when I got into my car, a butterfly followed and fluttered around inside. For a moment I thought "Wow, this is something you don't see everything... this is pretty amazing!" and if I had my camera, I would have tried to capture it on film (or memory. Go technology, although I do miss the feeling and sound of film "clicking" in my SLR) but then it got really close to me and I sorta freaked out. Not that I thought it was going to kill me (because really... I don't think it could do that) but more like that it could bite me or I might wave it away and I might break one of its wings and then it will fall to the ground... and since I'm finniky about picking it up (for fear that it may bite me), it will stay on the ground of my car and bake in the heat. And that would truly be tragic.

Luckily it only fluttered around for a minute and exited out my door. I guess it just wanted to see how it was from the inside.

Silly butterfly, the grass is always greener....

Its *not* Gonna Be Me

Once upon a time... about 6 years ago, there was a silly girl who blogged. She wrote about everything underneath the sun... life, family, friends, her hatred for a 1998 Volkswagen beetle (boo to you!), her dogs, and of course, this seemingly little crush on Lance Bass and the boys of N'SYNC. Given the light of today's news, I'd like to share with you some of that silliness.

December 18 2000

ooooooOO... i got my first christmas gift on friday too.. guess what it was!?!? it was a LANCE puppet doll!! its sooo cute and i took it out of the box and i can make it dance! (somewhat... more like jump up and down and make it walk like a retard!) its soo wickedly cool.. but last night it kinda scared me cause my light was making some weird noise.... and i thought that my puppet came to life and was making the noise... i dunno.. i couldnt sleep for a while.

January 15, 2001

carlene says my Lance puppet is fat and the strings will soon break cause he is so fat. i told her that joey is unpopular... and thats why you can only find a bunch of joey and chris stuff. next thing you know they are going to have "buy one JC, JUSTIN, LANCE product,.. get CHRIS OR JOEY for FREE" sales. she got mad at me for that... but hey... she said lance was fat so she had it coming.

July 25, 2001

YEE HAW!! I LOVE NSYNC!! I LOVE LANCE!! He's such a cutie... *sigh* Mrs. Lansten Bass? Mrs. Nicole Bass? Well, its alright... not necessarily better than what it is right now but if I'm happily married, I'll take any name that comes my way.

Well, I'm jotting this on back of an NSYNC ROCKS MY WORLD sign in the parking lot/golf course behind the Rose Bowl because concert just ended and traffic sucks. I think I have spent over 6 hours in Keri's car today and the concert was only 2 hours long! The Rosebowl is an awful venue.. parking SUCKS, exiting the parking lot SUCKS cause theres only ONE main road and 20 thousand cars trying to get out..

July 30, 2001

Had a very interesting conversation with Pic today... damn lucky duck. But I cross my fingers and wish that some day, it will be me.
Pic: i called you on your cell
Me: hmmmm.... weird.. it hasnt rang or anything.. whats up?
Pic: i called you when i was right in front of lance
Me: OH SHUT UP!! oh my gosh..
Pic: i got to shake his hand!!!
Me: SHUT UP!!
At least he thought of me and my crush on Lance to call me when he was near him... :)

January 21, 2002

Oh speaking of geeky... did anyone see the Chili's "BABY BACK RIBS" commerical with Nsync singing?? OK... I was soooo excited to see my baby (Lance) sing AND to actually hear his deep *sexy* voice during his solos... but then... I realized... it was a really GAY commerical and that they totally sold out. So the whole experience was bittersweet I guess... I'll probably be elated to see it again but at the same time I'll bow my head in shame and embarassment.

March 30, 2003

Dear Lance,

I finally watched "ON THE LINE."

Its over.

~Nicole

P.S. Do you think its possible to hook me up with Justin? Thanks.

September 10, 2003

*Oh my broken heart...*
spaznik: im watching some old nsync videos...
spaznik: deep inside... i miss them.
jeanyah: they're coming back!
jeanyah: eventually
jeanyah: lance said so :-)
spaznik: hahahaha i sorta miss lance too.
spaznik: im such a fool jean!!
jeanyah: no.. it's okay
jeanyah: first loves die hard
spaznik: what will i do!?!
jeanyah: are you going to be okay?
spaznik: i think so...
spaznik: one day at a time right?
jeanyah: yes
jeanyah: step by step... just like the 'great ones' said before them

December 11, 2003

There was a time that when I listened to NSYNC's THE ONLY GIFT, I would smile and blush during Lance's solo. I'd imagine he was singing to me... that deep sexy voice was all for me.

What a nerd I was.

Let's flashforward to today...
July 26, 2006

*To Jean this morning*
spaznik: http://people.aol.com/people/article/0,26334,1219142,00.html
spaznik: AAAAHHHHHHHHHH
spaznik: good thing I dumped him...
spaznik: cause then it would TOTALLY be awkward now...
spaznik: totally.

doubleup144: Sorry to break it to you...Lance Bass is Gay

CrAzYmondo: so.....your old crush Lance Bass huh? :-)
spaznik: HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA
spaznik: gee thank mondo.
spaznik: RUB IT IN MY FACE!!
CrAzYmondo: :-D
CrAzYmondo: LOL!
CrAzYmondo: It's so funny!
CrAzYmondo: Just hearing that in the morning
CrAzYmondo: I was like "It's gonna be a good day"

:P to Petey and Mondo. Don't even get me started... I have archives and pictures. We'll save that for another day.

So yeah... its been an interesting day. Probably the best part was on my way to work, I was listening to "THIS I PROMISE YOU" and Jean called... and we just laughed the entire way in the car. I had tears in my eyes. Nothing like an old crush of yours coming out of the closet to make your day complete. :)